My feelings; My thoughts; My Ideas

2011-11-12T02:35:00.001+08:00

Patched back for e second time but e end result still e same. Nic said I felt v hurt. First time he understood.

Pain again from xinhue after what happened on wed. I regret my decision telling her I wun msg her to make her nt guilty. Woke up today finding myself calling her name.. First time I ever did tat..

Decided tat no more mr nice guy. I 1 2 msg her again. Dun care abt her feeling guilty for she can ignore me if she really feel so. She can used me all she 1. This time I will just fight for wat I want. Nice guy suffer alone all e time. Time for me to fight for wat I know will make me happy n I know I can give her happiness..

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2011-04-18T01:54:00.001+08:00

Why? Why did u SMS and ask me again? Why is it always question? Why is it alway abt how I think how I feel? After so many weeks and telling you so many times don't u get it?

Why can't u said you wish to get back? Why can't you said you will change or something like I miss you very much and still love you alot can u give me another chance?

I'm not enjoying all of these. Don't you even realize that you are just pushing me away..

This time it's a decision I will not change.

Take care..

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2011-04-15T23:31:00.001+08:00

Saw ur SMS when I woke up today.
I was surprise to see your SMS and the thanks for taking care of you for the past 1.5yrs.
Wanted to reply but I didn't know what to said..
Sorry will always be my word to you no matter it's now or the future. I seriously think it's the most selfish way by not patching back but also the best for both of us.

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2011-04-15T00:07:00.001+08:00

14 April 2011. They day I deleted myself from ur fb as requested by you. Deleted photos that I tagged you.

Just Zhenzhen got it right. I'm just pretending that I don't care.

Night..

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2011-04-13T01:12:00.001+08:00

So many a time, I could have just forget abt what happened and get back together but I didn't. Why? Maybe I really do not want to go through the whole process again and the end result would be the same.

Till today, she still feel that everything I said is a lie. Well, all I can said is I never felt the trust from day one.

So many yrs has pass w so many r/s but I'm still alone. So I guess something like that I just have to bite on and move on with my life.

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2011-03-24T00:07:00.002+08:00

Stare blankly into the sky.. Something I nvr done before.. I saw the emails she sent to me... Sometimes I ask myself.. Did I make the right choice in gg into this relationship?

I always wish there is a time machine which allow me to go back in time to correct the mistake that I make.. This time I really wish there is one.. So that we would not be so hurt..

To patch or not? This sentence has been in my mind the whole time.. 1 side said yes the other said no.. My no factors out-weight the yes. I really don't what to do or said..

Never call anyone or inform anyone expect dropped zhenzhen a text about our broke off. I don't what is stopping me but maybe I just want to be alone.. Go to a place where I can be alone but I can't..

Planning to get marry.. Something I never though of till her but in the end I have to force myself to let everything go.. It really hurts alot. I know how much I'm hurting her too but I really hope some day she will understand.. For now, I hope she will remain strong.. Texted her last night and the only reply I got was "I will take care of myself and thanks"

I know she is still crying. I really wish I can go over and give her a big hug and tell her I still love her. I just do not know why am I torturing both of us. Am I making the right choice?

Everything feel so different.. So empty inside me.. No one to look forward to. Just work to keep my busy from staring in space and feeling sad..

2011-03-22T23:26:00.002+08:00

We talked yesterday.. Or rather she was the one who wanted to talk and get back together but I did not said anything.

I know that was the chance for us to get back again.. But why didn't I? I can only said is this time round I'm unsure.. I miss her, I still love her but the thought of us going through all of these over and over again is unbearable for me..

As much as I want to be hug her and tell her that everything is alright, I didn't. The only thing that is in my mind now is for her to go back.. I can't give her the happiness she want nor do I want her to suffer here.. Selfish thinking? I guess so.. I guess I just do not want her to go through everything over and over again. She has suffer enough for the past 1.5yrs in this relationship.

Time for me to be a man let her go. I know she will feel very hurt and I really do hope she hate me but at the same time I hope she understand that all I want is to see the smile back on her face. Been with me for the past 1.5yrs has been very stressful to both of us. The only reason why till today I can still handle all these partly is because my family, friends and everything is here.. Who and what does she have? She do not even have a house which she can call home..

I do not know if she will resign and go back but I do hope she will. At least leave this sad place, back to a place where it would bring back her smile.

The only way to feel better is to blog.. A blog which no one will read but I know when I look back I will remember all those things that happened..

I really wish I can tell her I'm sorry for hurting you so much. Although I still love you, it's this love that make me so heartless to let you go..In the hope that you will live a life happier than been with me. I know now you will know not feel this way but I just hope that 6 months to a year from now, you will enjoy your life better than been with me so that all these that I have done would be worth it.

2011-03-20T22:23:00.002+08:00

Wah.. My last post was year 2009.. That was about my first HR job.. Now, I'm about 2yrs in this line, pay wise well it has increase quite alot as for experience wise, I really learn alot. From a don't know anything to someone who is working in RWS and in-charge of all the foreign workers pass and etc.. It's not an easy job especially when there is about 3000 in total foreign workers including those expat.

The first day since about 2 yrs i blog and also the day we broke off. Been together for about 1.5yrs. Actually we have been quarreling and arguing at least twice a month.. The old me would have want to get out of the relationship 6months into it if something like that keep happening but I guess I really just find it tough to just let it go. This time I really put in my future and feeling into it but as usual, everything go back to square one..

I do not know what will happen from here on but finally I'm able to go for my degree. Something which I wanted to do since I completed my NS. My results since primary 4 haven been that good.. I would said if i can manage a pass I should be happy but this time round I really have to work triple hard to score and when I mean score I mean I must get my first class honors. I know it's not easy moreover my work load is so heavy but this is my last chance to get a good result so that at the very least I see a light in my future..

I guess I really have to learn to let her go coz I'm the one causing all these pain to her. Now since we break off, she can go back and be with her parents so she would not have to suffer so much.
I wanted to tell her all these and said I'm sorry but guess the word sorry doesn't really help..

2009-08-25T06:59:00.001+08:00

Terminal 2

Its 7am in the morning and i having breakfast at Killiney.. The toast sucks, coffee is sweet, egg is dry.. Too bad there isn't any ya kun here..
Anyway e reason y I'm at airport so dam early is bcoz I need to send an Indian worker back.. He got some family matters so I'm here to pass him his passport and make sure he check in.

Its been more than 4mths since i last took up this job as a HR assistant. Been working part-time at bookcafe the past 2 weekends..
I been thinking shld i resign? Its really meaning working here. I gain some experience in this 4mths but I'm already at e max. At site, there is a limit to wat I can do and wat info I can access.. I feel tat I'm more of a "runner" than a HR Assistant. I guess the part-time job at bookcafe allow me to consider quitting my job first and find another new job. In this way i will still have a source of income and find a more suitable job which worrying abt the 1mth notice period which alot of company/agency are unwilling to wait..

This trip to airport really allow me to make up my mind. If I where to stay and carry on working, I will not b able to gain any more working experience that will help me in the future. It will only be a HR Assistant in name but my knowledge would be even worst than a 6mths temp staff..

I know that if i change a job now, it wun look good on my resume but frankly speaking, staying here long doesn't mean it will help either. If during interview, some1 were to ask me to talk abt my job scope over here, they will have a good time laugh. "Hw can a HR Assistant who work abt a yr doesn't know all these?".. These would definitely be 1 of the question in the interviewer mind..

I always wanted to work in a F&B establisment as a HR Assistant, but its nt tat easy moreover i do not have a dip in HRM. I guess for now I juz have to pray tat my luck will come again aft Ting Tai Feng din call me up for an interview..

2009-08-14T23:10:00.004+08:00

August

I'm a confirm staff at my company.. haiz.. how time flies.. I wun said I'm very happy at my current company but nor am I very unhappy.. Lets juz said I'm scouting for a new company.. Tmr I'm starting my part-time job at bookcafe.. Hmm work 5.5days per week then sat aft work go there work part-time.. N sun.. My sun where i can nua, but i choose to go work at bookcafe.. hahaha.. well I miss working in service line... Well, I be working for Alan n tat terence (ex-boss) is coming over too..

I guess I really miss my time working at Sentosa.. Chef Jasmine quitted n went back to Malaysia..( a big big big surprise to all of us) garden without her, it would b so different.. Without her i wun go back there 4 dinner.. coz i feel she is 1 chef who i admire and w her in e kitchen I'm nt worry abt e food coming out from there.. hai..

I been meeting up w linda n jessie from pavilion quite often and we 3 grow closer than b4.. I been thinking, a yr from now when their contract is up, they might go back to china.. by then its v tough 4 us to maintain closer contact n it will sure cause us to drift apart.. I guess i need to save up alot so i can go china find them n ask them 2 show me around..

I uploaded a few Marina Barriage pic e other day, it was taken on a sat when i was there.. I realise tat i always go there but nvr go in so tat sat since i know 4 e next 3hrs i got nthing to do, so i went it look look c c then have bf there.. Guess e view would look nicer at night..

A video clip tat I saw n i like it alot..

OK time to go sleep liao.. I think i forgot to blog something but I can't recall.. anyway till next time..

2009-06-01T15:33:00.006+08:00

June

Half a yr gone.. From working as a service staff to some1 who has his own desk.. Its really a big big change.. Been working as a HR assist 4 abt 1mth plus already.. I wun said I'm v happy w my current job but juz glad tat finally I can make good use to watever I'm studying or rather its related to watever I'm studying.. Frankly speaking, having expectation of a good 2 me is a good thing coz u know wat ur goals r and how the job can help u reach tat goal of us but currently my job is not helping me in this area.. I'm so bored n not happy with my current job that I'm already sending out my resume again.. Yes again.. But i really dun 1 2 stick in a job tat doesn't help me to growth.. N I hate doing nothing abt 80% of my time n sit here juz 2 wait 4 6pm to clock out..

This mth Min gg 4 her mission trip.. I nvr understand y sometime ppl said their r/s is complicated.. Coz to me love me love dun love mean dun love.. But now i really understand.. I guess for us now, we juz learn to cherish e time we have n watever happen later will b a c how thing ba..

2009-05-25T01:00:00.002+08:00

A Night

It came where i least expected.. So unexpected tat i was so lose.. B4 tat I need to said sorry to all those who were at e ktv today..

To my dear Min, I have said wat i can said to u since day 1 till today.. If aft thinking through n u really feel tat our r/s is not the most important, then tell me.. Said to me u dun 1 this r/s.. Said u r nt happy in this r/s.. I will let u go.. I really will.. I will even said out tat sentence juz bcoz u 1 me 2.. Coz i dun have a choice..

As of today, its been 1mth n 4days.. I know it haven't been a smooth ride but e time we had was something I cherish so much.. So much more than any1 i had been with.. E effort u put in I can send tat u love me juz tat there is too many "but" n "wat if" in ur mind.. I dunno shld i prepare myself 4 e worst or not.. Mayb if i did then i would blame tat y my life is always so unfair.. Y my love life cannot b like others?.. Y is it tat when i put effort in it i cannot achieve the happiest for me n my love 1?

I love you. . I really do.. I realise tat for me nt been angry w wat u did tonight, I know tat I love u v v deep.. All i can do now is wait n wait..

2009-05-22T12:44:00.002+08:00

First Month

I know i got a few entries on of the same kind.. Talking abt first or 6th mth together with my gf.. So wat so different from this compare to the rest of that I have to blog? To the eyes of others, every r/s of other people is almost the same but to the eyes of the couple, there is always a diff in every r/s.

In a mth, every1 has so many days, so many hours and for a couple it will always b their "honeymoon" period. I wun disagree on this. This v r/s w Min or Cat (as some of u know) is rather different from all e girls tat i have been. Altot been together in a r/s is a v happy thing n during this period how most couple would have so many "ups" that they slowly they would take each other for granted.. My r/s w Min in juz a short 1 mth, allow me to experience the lowest n highest point where a r/s can go.

My pass entries explain all of the above. I know 1mth is a short period n like she said, we still do not know each other tat well but at least we know how we can built on this r/s, hw to handle things best suited for us and this r/s. From got feeling to like to loving each other, its something I feel we have come a long way too.. We dun spend as much time together as much couple can but 2 reach the stage where we r nw, I believe nt many couple would understand or be like us in a mth time.

How we celebrate this 1mth ytd? nothing much, juz a simple NATM(night at e museum 2) aft work. Having our own time is already something we will appreciate moreover we r watching a show e 2 of us like. Nothing beats spending quality time w some1 who u love n doing things tat e 2 of u like.

Thanks for trusting me and this r/s Min. Hopefully we can keep adding more 1mth to it.

2009-05-18T20:52:00.002+08:00

Bad Mood?

Hmm mayb i sound fierce 2 u.. Mayb it seems like i blame u 4 everything.. Mayb u might think everything is bcoz of u.. I dunno.. Sms u also nvr reply.. Ask u wats wrong on msn but u seems v impatient..

Mayb wat i juz type isn't wat u r feeling or thinking.. I dunno.. All i really 1 is a hug from u today.. I tot i could have a hug aft work from u but knowing tat ur sis is waiting 4 u I decide i rather juz go hm then take e train w u all..

I dunno if u understand.. but its nt i dun 1 2 c u or join u all to take e train back but ur sis has been waiting 4 u since 530.. i can't possible ask u all to wait 4 me till 620 or later right? Like u said, i'm taking bus home from amk so y must she wait 4 me when she is already waiting 4 u 4 so long already.. N andy is waiting 4 u all at amk at 645... I dun 1 u 2 have a hard time explaining to ur sis this n tat..

Since last week aft exam, i been trying ways n mean to meet up.. but i realise tat its so tough.. u r so busy over e weekend.. n weekday u will go back w ur sis aft work so i can't send u home.. E most we can only meet up once a week 2 go out provided u r not tired.. I'm nt blaming u or wat.. Mayb i juz need to say it out.. to let u know wat i am thinking.. This r/s isn't easy.. Mayb sometime all i need is a hug from u n sayang me like a little baby to make me feel better.. Be it hw e r/s goes.. I really hate u telling me mayb we wun even b together, we would not last.. i know its a fact but y is it tat we must b reminded of this thing every day,every week...

I really wish tat u i can have a hug from u nw or even a call from u.. But but hai.. "I dun chat w u la.. U sleep early"... ya.. sleep early.. do i have e choice? u already said it out.. Aft wat happen at work i tot at e v least i can have a chat w u tonight...

2009-05-18T20:09:00.004+08:00

Back From Batam Trip

reach sg at abt 7pm last night.. Hmm my first time gg to a spa.. i would said i really enjoy.. Eat n eat n eat on e first day w "live" fish, crabs n lala.. omg.. 5 person only abt sgd 30.. Hmm if possible mayb we will arrange another spa trip in 3 mths time..

2009-05-16T01:53:00.002+08:00

Pre weekend Trip

hmmm 2am in e morning, I shld b sleeping coz i b gg 4 a short weekend trip to batam 4 spa massage n i need 2 work in e morning.. Well juz 1 2 blog abit..

Went to hortpark last weekend w nic, charlie and Min.. Had dinner at handle bar.. Long time since i went there... I fun n exciting trip.. Will go there again if have e chance..

hmmm I juz came back from bookscafe w Min juz now.. Been super long time since I last go there.. Shld be at least more than 6mths liao.. I still miss e sofa seat n quiet moments of e place.. Hmm wonder hw Min feel abt tat place.. O did i mention tat its top of list of favourite chilli out place? N w my netbook, its juz make it even better..

OK guess tats all i will blog for now.. Hmmm will miss u v badly n thanks for today.. I really enjoy e time we spend together..

2009-05-14T00:58:00.001+08:00

Post For Fun

Yeah.. Last paper of for this sem.. Finally.. I manage to survive this through this paper.. I really really hate exam.. I can study n learn but i juz hate exam.. waking up super early juz to study n rush through last min of revision.. Hmmm in a few more mths i need 2 do everything over again.. well for now.. juz enjoy e free time till lesson start again on jun 8th.. Hmm there is so many things i 1 2 blog but i juz lazy.. Mayb i will blog more if i got more time.. so many things i need 2 get it done n up coming so many movie to watch.. This weekend i b gg to batam 4 spa massage.. heehee.. For now i juz hope i tat will b able to spend more time w Min b4 sch reopens n b4 her mission trip..

Ok tats all 4 today.. super lazy to type.. time to play some game..

2009-05-07T14:05:00.002+08:00

Morning SMS

653am.. To receive an sms at tat time from u was e most surprise thing up to date.. I nvr expect tat.. Wake up to check did i overslept n i din even ask u 2 do it.. Touch.. e only word i can use to describe my feelings... Thanks alot Min..

2009-05-06T12:42:00.003+08:00

A Decision

So many things happen in a day.. Too many.. Last night u said it out 4 e first time.. No matter hw i prepare myself, i was still nt ready 4 it.. I held back my tears.. Talk to u in a calm n senseable manner.. Finally we hug.. Whispering 2 me at e moment:" I decided.. I can't let u go.. I dunno hw to let u go yet.." I tot at e moment e hug would b my last hug 2 u.. I know i shld b feeling on cloud 9 aft hearing tat sentence to me but i was also having this frighten feeling... Afraid tat u would take it back n try 2 let it go again.. Now, all i 1 is juz 2 b happy w u n make u happy.. I wun 1 2 think abt all these..

U told ur mum abt us!!! Like u said u really surprise me.. Been w u isn't easy, tat i admit but been w me isn't easy too.. E surprises tat u give me all e time is really making this r/s so interesting.. I know for sure I din make e wrong decision.. Thank you my love..

2009-05-05T11:47:00.004+08:00

First Time

Love u.. That was wat u text last night.. I tot my eyes were playing trick on me.. Smiling to myself to sleep, I believe tat wat u said last night was something deep from your heart.. I still remember u forbid me to said these words.. Even aft i was allow to use them :) i know 4 u 2 said something like tat it wun b easy coz u need 2 really feel it juz like hw i feel..

No matter wat doubt u always have or wat u can't overcome, I strongly believe tat one can't lie to his/her own heart...

For me, aft wat happen to me n xd i told myself from then on, i wun lie to my heart.. I will follow wat my heart said.. Its nt an easy task too coz there is so many external factors tat will affect a person thinking or decision but if we r determine n go 4 e things tat we strongly believe in then we wun have regret n will always b happy.. Be it wat ppl think or other external factors, when u can prove 2 ppl tat e decision u make is abt u been happy n not abt wat they think, they will accept e facts n no other factors can make u change ur mind on this..

2weeks into e r/s.. Aft wat u told me, i can't help wondering.. Our r/s really can't stand up 2 e test? Y is every1 opinion so important? Y is it tat been happy in this r/s is so difficult? I dun blame u 4 all these nor am i finding fault at u.. All i ever 1 is 4 us 2 b happy.. As i grow older i become more n more selfish.. I believe tat r/s is abt 2 person only n on1 else.. If these 2 person r not happy then y b in a r/s.. If they r happy then y care abt so many other things? How many time have we been so happy in our life? I hope when i blog again, it would b something happy..

2009-05-03T23:01:00.011+08:00

EXAM

Second paper only for tmr.. Then fri third n e following wed last 1.. Hai.. I really Hate exam.. but wat to do.. if 1 2 study then need to take exam.. Till now i haven even study at least half for tmr paper.. To make things worst, i need to work tmr.. can only apply for half a day.. Think tmr paper up e lorry liao.. Cannot throw smoke like e first paper.. lol...

Juz 1 2 let u know tat I was extremely worry when i heard tat u were sick ytd.. i know i can't do anything n will nag at u but i hope u will understand.. Hmm was so happy tat at least i get 2 spend a few hrs w u ytd...

Sometimes i will ask myself, how much u miss me? Hw strong is ur feelings 4 me? Hmm I din ask coz i know there wun b a direct answer.. I can't compare feelings 4 feelings.. coz every1 feel different towards every1.. Saw wat u said on ur blog.. It feels good to know tat u listen to my thoughts n feelings but sometimes i juz feel tat u can make ur own decision. I guess e main concern i been having these few days is, is e r/s putting a strain on u? is e r/s causing u 2 lose focus on wat u 1 in ur life? I juz hope tat this r/s really dun affect ur studies..

As much as i love u n miss u almost everyday.. there is something tat i nvr tell u coz i'm scare.. Scare tat it will come truth.. But i guess i juz blog it today coz i know u will read it.. If u really feel tat u dun wish 2 have this r/s 4 watever e reason is then b frank n let me know.. Dun say things like u will hurt me or I am reluctant.. Coz it sure will hurt n nvr will i b willing.. Like i always said, I juz 1 2 c e happy n cheerful u..

2009-05-01T21:27:00.004+08:00

Past

Yr 2006, the yr i start this v blog.. I din realise its been so long till cat told me e other night.. I remember i started blogging aft i broke off w zz.. hahaha..

Of all e exs, I guess e only 1 who dun really read my blog is mery.. All along i feel tat a blog is a like an online diary juz tat e different is ppl or friends get 2 read it.. I nvr really mind tat for I always have this tot "If u 1 2 blog then be prepare to let others know".. I nvr even bother abt wat my exs (at e time is gf) will think when whenever they read my blog.. To me i always feel tat i got nothing to hide..

For yrs, i nvr tot of deleting any entries juz for my exs or even for xd esp when they dun like or dun feel good when they read abt my past.. Altot i felt tat nic did a great job as a bf to delete his blog juz 4 charlie, i nvr really understand tat..

I almost went to delete my blog entries e other day but I din.. I wun said i'm glad or wat but at tat moment i really understand y did nic wanted to do wat he did.. Aft listening to how cat felt e other night aft reading abt a few of e entries tat i wrote, i really wanted to juz delete e whole blog or rather delete all e past n juz keep wat is blog abt she n me.. Stupid it may sound but I feel tat if she will 2 feel better this way then its worth it..

Ytd she told me she dun 1 2 read my past entries.. Its so wordy n there is so many entries.. "Wat past is already past" she type this to me on msn.. I smile.. She is e first gf tat actually told me tat..

She always said "Dun treat me so nice or give in to me so easily Fred, i dun wish to take u 4 granted".. I dun think its possible 4 me nt 2 treat her nie or give in 2 her.. Yes i agree tat sometimes her temper is not v good but up till now, I dun mind.. She has nvr really lose her temper at me and altot she tend 2 demand things, I'm more tat willing to give.. Coz all i 1 is her 2 b happy for this 1mth plus.

Ytd she put e word marry me on msn.. i was surprise but i know she was juz joking.. I told her, if i get 2 choose i would 1 2 marry her.. hahaha.. Sometimes i really ask myself, wat is happening to me.. E old fred would nt even 1 2 talk abt marriage but here i am thinking of hw much i 1 2 marry her n wishing tat day might come true..

Zz ytd scold me n idiot coz she said u will know a person better by talking to her.. I told her not every will give this feeling 1 n doesn't mean u talk to 2 person 4 long u would know e other person better.. For her i really know her better..

2009-04-30T08:14:00.003+08:00

Relationship

"Do u really love catherine tat much?" A question zz ask me over sms ytd.. Surprise at e question.. But still i gave her a direct answer without thinking "Yes, v much.." If this was me a few mths or yrs back, I would not have think in such a way coz e r/s is only 10days long.. To most ppl, its too early to tell. Too early to decide.. I agree but only if i was e old me.. In n out of a few r/s, I have nvr feel so certain, so sure, so confidence of my feelings.. Be it what i said in e past or wat i blog.. I was always happy when i was attach but this r/s.. Its so different.. It make me think and plan for the future even tot we both know tat the big problem might cause us to break off..

Every r/s has it high n low, juz like in life we have our ups n downs.. Been together w her was e high point in e r/s but ytd, it was e lowest point e 2 of us ever get too.. I admit, beening in this r/s sometimes can make us feel v tired be it mentally or physcially.. But giving up has nvr been on my mind.. I believe tat everything happen 4 a reason.. Mayb y all these happen now is a test for us.. To allow us learn n handle the low in this r/s and if we can get over it, we all appreciate the high even more n not take it for granted.. It was only ytd then i truthly realised tat to have a high point in e r/s is not easy, it take alot of time n effort from both parties and with a handfull of problems in hand, it only make things worst.. but on e other hand, a low point can b reach in a min or even less.. Juz bcoz of this 1 low point, it can break up 2 person, cause ppl to make decision tat they regretted and even leave a "scar.."

Recovering from a low this point is nt easy.. For some, they nvr recover, for some they take days or even weeks or mths.. I believe if 2 person are willing to forgive n forgot as well as try to make things work again, then nothing is impossible..

A 4 sms long msg early in e morning.. If i ever 1 2 give up on this r/s i wun even bother 2 send an sms this long.. 15mins.. tats hw long i took 2 think n type this sms.. I really 1 2 walk 2 e end of e road w u.. I stand by all these words tat i said.. even if 1 day we can't b together, e only memory tat i would not 1 is e last day of our r/s.. I 1 us to have such a good memories tat we can tell others, its a r/s tat i wun forgot coz we had so many good memories of it..

2009-04-29T11:47:00.002+08:00

Worry

hmm dunno hw to said.. I know u r worry and i know u wish to know wat happen.. I know by telling u dun worry is pointless juz like when u r sick u tell me not to worry.. I know i'm been selfish by not telling you wat happen last night.. All i can said is sorry..

From nw on, i promise 2 let u know.. As for wat happen last night.. i will tell u but not now..

2009-04-28T16:54:00.002+08:00

Surprise Surprise Surprise

ok i know I blog once today already.. but this.. This i really need to blog.. To let those of u who is reading this blog know..

She actually blog abt me on her blog.. heehee.. I know to some of u its like no big deal but she dun blog on her bf n by right none of her friends know abt us.. I dun really mind abt all these n i mean it.. Tats y when i saw her talking abt me on her blog i was so so speechless.. So so happy..

I know its something v big to her.. its something she nvr do b4.. Thanks alot my dear.. No way would i even think tat u would do something like tat..

N lastly dear, take ur time in this r/s.. I know abt ur stress and pressure so take it easy n things will be fine.

2009-04-28T10:18:00.002+08:00

Another Long Night?

hmm 3am in the morning.. yes tats e time i slept last night.. Well its not bcoz I'm sleepless or bcoz of the weather.. Its bcoz i was chatting w my gf.. (I'm not complaining tot) 2 more hrs and we would have chat for a quarter of a day.. 4hrs was hw long we chat.. I still can't believe it.. I think zz will call me heartless again.. hahaha..

On this v night, not only was i so surprise by wat u said but u really make me speechless a few time.. Nvr in my life have i feel so much in a night.. I was really over the moon when I heard your feelings for me.. Frankly speaking I din know tat in abt a week you can feel so much for me.. Since the day when u said u doubt me, i was thinking to myself tat it wun b easy to clear all those doubt.. I was really afraid tat this doubt would cause u 2 leave me...

I couldn't help myself but juz keep smiling when i heard wat u said.. I always said i nvr regret been in this r/s w u nor make all those decisions tat i made n ytd u not only make me believe so strongly in my decision u also give me a new chapter to my life, my love life...

Its a chapter so different from all my ex's.. So different from any1 i have feelings for.. waking up n on e way to work till now blogging at work.. I still can forget wat u told me last night.. I admit tat is only a week like wat most of my friends said, I'm really so in love.. Thanks my dear.. Its a relationship that i know i will not have any regret no matte wat happen as long as u are there

2009-04-27T23:18:00.002+08:00

First Paper

Finally, first paper is over.. I would 1 2 said today e classroom was e coldest room i ever seat in.. n i swear i really need winter clothes.. Hmm study quite alot for the past 24hrs but the topic tat i remember e most din come up.. To think e lecturer make us read so much.. Well not really e whole text but selective topic.. But still some of them din even come up lor..
Hmm up coming another 1 on next mon n fri.. Hai.. Tat fri 1 i really dun have much time to study..

Went to watch "taken" w dear aft paper today, hmm sometime alone n relieve some stress for her coz she keep feeling tat she will get a "D"for this paper n she do v badly.. Been trying to as her to be positive abit but i know its almost impossible la.. I know tat kind of feeling..

Hmm.. Like i said e other day, when its over dun think too much abt it coz there are other paper which u need to attempt.. Juz focus on the other papers and study for them earlier so when u r taking them u wun have e same feeling again.. Juz hope tat u will b fine by tmr coz i really dun wish to c e moody u n thid moody feeling affect ur next paper.. Dun worry, no matter wat I will b there for you n like u always said, god will b there for u too..

Hope tat when u call me later, u will be fine provided u call be n did not fall asleep..

2009-04-26T23:42:00.003+08:00

Touched N Surprise

I was rather surprised tat u wanted to come over my house today knowing my mum is at home.. Came online last night juz 2 read my blog b4 u sleep even tot u can do it on another day esp when u r so tired.. I know you did all these is not juz to make me happy but rather it's things u really feel like doing.. I really appreciate wat u did and be it how little or big e effort is, i will remember..

When u said abt things will change aft ur mission trip, how much peace u found today aft the training.. I can only said, I sense something wasn't right aft u reach home from your training.. June 16th, the day where u will leave for 6days for your mission trip in cambodia.. I will pray that nothing will change and even there is a change it will change for the better and not the worst for us..

For now, juz remember wat i said, I 1 the next mth plus to be something tat u can remember and be happy abt rather than live it as a forgotten n unhappy memories.. Whether will there b any happy memories between the 2 of us aft ur trip, we will deal it aft u come back home..

Remember dun ask me not 2 treat u nice coz I can't.. Miss u n loving u is part of my life now, i hope that it will b part of me forever..

2009-04-26T00:04:00.004+08:00

Decided

Hmm b4 i talk abt wat is on my mind.. Juz 1 2 said, i saw ur blog juz now.. yes i made e card myself.. I dun need u 2 reply or do anything.. Juz like wat u said, i guess we no longer know hw 2 communicate w each other anymore.. Glad tat u n dan r putting effort 2 make things work out.. All the best n i guess mayb as time pass we would b each other past memory.. Nothing more..

Hmm mon is first exam paper but till now i haven study much.. Yes yes.. I will go study later.. late at night.. 26 april.. We been together 4 6days already.. I really 1 2 said Catherine My dear, I really Love You.. I know u forbid me to said this word so i type it out here. heehee.. As days n time passed, i realised tat i miss u more n more.. I haven chat or dun chat w any1 on e phone for 2-3hrs long.. with u i really wish tat i dun have to hang up e phone..

We talk abt me not been a christian n how much I love u as compare to u.. How this r/s will end if i'm nt a christian n how important it is to u.. I know abt all these all along.. I'm not stupid or dumb.. I dun talk abt it doesn't mean i dunno.. Even b4 we start or get 2 know each other so well, i know tat me nt been a christian will affect e r/s..

At e back of my head, I know tat this r/s will not last nor will we be able to walk down path of marriage together.. I nvr doubt my feelings 4 u not even once.. But like u said there is no other solution to it unless I am a christian.. n u know tat i will not.. I love u but been a christian mean a different thing.. I always feel tat i'm a free thinker n its hard for 4 me 2 juz believe in jesus.. U said tat if 1 day there is some1 nice n better then go 4 it.. I will tell u NO.. From the day we r together I have decided tat u r e 1.. The 1 who i 1 2 settle dw with.. I wun take any interest in any1 anymore.. As stupid as it may sound but its e truth even tot i know how this r/s will end.. I will only said, if u ever saw some1 u like n is a christian then go 4 it.. Coz this time its better tat u break my heart.. I wun b able 2 break yours..

No matter hw tough this road will b, i will carry on walking till e day u found some1 new or decided nt 2 carry on walking w me.. Its something I decided..

2009-04-24T11:57:00.004+08:00

Frank

Saw your blog.. I do not know if u are talking abt me but i got a feeling u r.. I guess nothing i said can clear ur doubt abt me n there is no point 4 me to explain.. Everything happen 4 a reason so i juz hope tat someday u will understand.. Guess e phrase "Fated to know each other but nt fated 2 b together" suit us alot..

What happen i have already put it behind me.. Wat remain are only good memories.. Learn to trust ppl n trust wat other said.. Having a strong n happy r/s tat last is nt an easy task.. All e best to u n him.

Wat i have blogged i wun take back, i stand by those words no matter wat happen coz everything i blog abt my feelings n thinkings comes at e moment n deep from my heart.. Be it to who the entry is for its always something truth..

2009-04-24T01:04:00.002+08:00

Phone Chat

Hmm hw many ppl have talk to me 4 more than 1hr on e phone b4? lol.. I guess not much of my friends especially for these past few yrs..

3hrs plus.. From my hp to my house phone.. From my bedroom to kitchen.. I haven talk so much to some1 for so so long.. We talk alot.. really alot.. To the extend i feel tat I'm giving her too much pressure n stress by telling her how i feel abt her.. Too detail.. Too in-depth.. But I know i wun regret coz its my truth feelings n i really 1 her to know..

Even like u said this r/s will nt last, it will not b till e day we get marry.. I know tat i will nt juz let u go.. Not this time.. I made a choice.. A choice i wun regret.. Tat is 2 start a r/s w u n to make e choice of having u as my last..

This 3hrs plus phone conversation really allow me 2 understand u more.. I hope it also help u 2 understand me more and know clearly hw important u r 2 me in my heart n life..

Guess tats all i can type.. eyes too small 2 stay open liao..

2009-04-23T11:34:00.003+08:00

2 days only?

Seriously I din know its only 2 days into this r/s.. I tot it was like 4-5days heehee.. Gg into a r/s b4 our upcoming exam is a risk.. But gg into this r/s is something i din even expect nor do i think she expected it..

I would said this r/s is so different from wat i used to have.. There is quite a few things we have to get used to and at e same time we have to "test water" to try to know each other better. All these isn't easy w work, study and upcoming exam.. But I'm sure we can learn to adpat and overcome..

Aft talking to cynthia n zz ytd, I know wat are e concerns of u all but I can tell u that I dun plan to give up on this.. If i wanted to then i wun even 1 2 start anything in the first considering the very first problem we know abt b4 we even talk abt each other feelings.. The main problem and issuse will be there but I'm sure we or rather i can find ways to over it.. Deep inside i knw tat its her tat i 1 and really i would love to walk dw then end of e path w her..

lets hope from now onwards every entry abt me n her will be a happy n exciting entry n not any sad or disappointed 1..

2009-04-22T17:42:00.002+08:00

Rotting @ Work

So bored at work.. Nothing much 2 do since i submit e punch card up to main office.. Yawn.. Hmm when 5pm came, i need 2 do some clearance for some1 but was too lazy.. Plan to leave it till tmr if not i b too free tmr..

I miss you.. Not bcoz i'm bored coz i really miss even when i'm chatting w u on msn.. 15mins more to go then off i go.. Yeah.. Finally i can get 2 c u..

2009-04-22T03:58:00.002+08:00

April 21st 09

A day to remember.. A barrier to overcome.. The road might not b a smooth 1 but nothing in life is smooth.. Its juz a matter of overcoming and take e positive out of it..

2009-04-19T00:18:00.003+08:00

Last Day..

April 18th 2009.. My very last day at The Sentosa Resort & Spa.. I been working there for 1yr 1mth n 8days.. If i add in tmr off day i b there for 9 days.. heehee.. Not many ppl know its my last day today.. So i bet if i go back n do clearance on mon, i sure kena from a few of them 1.. heehee..

Almost all pavilion n poolside staffs know today is my last day but poolside staffs only know abt it today.. E same goes to garden staffs.. I only manage to c chef jasmine today n i guess i really surprise her..

To those who din know.. Its a v rush decision for me.. I received a call on monday n was ask 2 go 4 e interview in e aftnoon.. Then i was "offered" the job of a HR assistant but they can't wait 4 my 1 mth notice.. I was to make a decision between take up e offer n pay back e hotel or give up e opportunity.. Aft allowing 2 consider 4 a day, i told decide to take up e offer.. Talk to florence (HR manager) n Liliane (my manager) abt it on wed.. Liliane actually wanted me 2 at least give her 2 weeks but the other company can't wait tat long.. So I decided tat i will start work over at their side on monday..

So there it is.. My v last day of work today.. I nvr quit my job in such a hurry b4 nor have i kept it so well like this time.. But i juz dun 1 ppl 2 come n ask me questions like y u quit? so where u gg to work? bla bla bla.. I guess i will only answer those questions to certain ppl n my close friends..

Almost cry today.. But i held back... Was on e shuttle bus up to hotel n out.. I wun said its last look coz i b back on mon to do clearance but so many things happen there.. The happy times i had w garden kitchen staff, e food they cook for me.. I nvr been so close 2 kitchen staff b4.. The hot n tiring working hours at pavilion.. E "argue" i always had w linda n jessie till every1.. yes even my manager also can't stand us.. hahaha.. She even threaten to give us warning letter juz to prevent us from talking.. hahaha.. This place also give me alot of other good memories.. It also make me know hw stupid i was in alot of decision I make.. I least I know i did not regret working here coz at least for some period of my time in my life i could look forward to walking pass the lobby n turn my head to look for a sweet n super happy smile tat will make my day..

Been working in this line 4 too long.. Part-time n full-time.. At this v age I'm doing a career switch.. I hope its not too late.. I still have passion for service line but I told myself i must earn more.. Working in this line can't bring to wat i 1.. but it has taught me alot of things.. Alot of knowledge tat i dare to said I can b better than some assistant managers or managers out there but e only thing is lack of experience in my resume.. I wun forget wat I've learn n all e hardwork i put in.. Really gg to b a new chapter of my life..

2009-04-19T00:03:00.006+08:00

Muffins!!!

Meet up w nic aft work.. Then charlie called to said she made muffins.. So he took e car n drove me to charlie house n have muffin for my dinner.. Nice nice muffins.. 4 muffins + 1 glass of plain water ( i requested this) Hmm.. really make me feel v full.. at least its super nice dinner aft a long day at work..

2009-04-18T01:19:00.002+08:00

Night Shift..

Haven been working night shift 4 at least 2mths liao.. Most ppl who knew was so surprise when they c me in e red "angbao" uniform.. Hmm guess its a good thing to work night once in a while.. Wanted to take some pic of e hotel so tat i can post hw it look like at night but too bad i din bring my camera n hp sucks at taking night shot.. I guess all these can only stay in my memory from now on..

2009-04-18T01:12:00.006+08:00

Affected

I tot i wun b affect if i saw u.. Lol.. hw wrong I was.. I guess u saw me too n knew tat i purposely board e bus using e alight door.. Call me timid, coward watever.. I can't walk pass u or stand there n smile at u like normal.. Juz tat glance of u bring back all the feelings tat i been trying to keep 4 days..

Been a long long time since i got so affect by some1 tat i can't even eat.. There is so much tat i wanted to said but i know nt at tat moment n tat place.. I just have to keep a distance 4 nw.. Tats e only way i can control myself..

2009-04-17T13:47:00.003+08:00

Thanks Alot My Dear Friends

Something I wanted to blog aft my lunch w zz.. I better blog it now since I'm slacking at vivo coffeebean b4 i start work later..

I dunno abt nic but i guess i really give zz and cynthia a shock for wat happen in t past 1 week.. I know i haven been myself and you guys got to put up w the crazy side of me.. I really appreciated for all your care and concern.

Thanks nic for making time to keep my company n listen to me moan n moan like a little kid. Thanks zz for making my day by writing on the postcard and spending so much of your times to listen to me cry, moan, nag and also for giving me all e support. I know u been calling heartless but i juz why this time its must more hurtful and pain compare 2 e time we broke off.. Mayb like i said b4, u n i were a couple b4 but this time round i almost had it but i let it slip past me..

Thanks cynthia despite her busy schedule and no show on last mon (heehee), she still manage to find time to sms me n talk to me on msn juz to check hw I'm coping.. Dun worry no1 will blame u.. Work is something no1 can control..

I know i been unfair to you guys for telling u all wat happen only nw esp to nic n cynthia where i told u guys aft everything is over.. I juz hope u guys will understand tat I really wanted to handle things myself this time coz u all can't always b there 4 me.. I might have regret wat i did but i nvr regret knowing e 3 of u.. I do not know wat you all will think but been e first 3 person in my life in group of friends n colleagues 2 know wat happen mean alot of me.. You 3 will have a special place in my heart and no matter wat happen to us, I 1 us to keep in contact always n stay close for as long as possible..

2009-04-14T23:31:00.004+08:00

Dinner at Aston

Hmm too bad cynthia nvr go if not nic would have 2 give me $5.. Hai.. There goes my $5.. Anyway thanks nic and zz for spending time w me and suan me today.. heehee.. Dun worry, I b fine..

Juz 1 2 post wat nic told us today.. E story goes like tat..
Zz:" Fred, u sure u 28 this yr? I still feel tat u look younger than tat"
Me: "O really? Mayb tats e reason y i dun have a gf"
Nic n Zz: "wah liao... you still dare say."
Nic: "People have gf is like fill up the warranty card and send; You leh... keep the warranty card until void liao then want to send."

He also said nt all warranty card shld b fill, some of them i shld nt even touch it..

Tat was e funniest thing he ever said e whole dam day.. Hahaha.. Something we all can use e next time round..

O i almost forgot.. Thanks zz for the postcards.. I did smile n laugh when i was reading it.. So dun said i no feelings 1..

2009-04-13T08:32:00.003+08:00

My biggest Regret..

Juz saw ur blog.. I guess taking ur for granted cause me to b so unsure of my feelings.. By the time i realise how much I love you, you are gone.. You are e second person in my life to make me so comfortable been w u and having so much memories of you.. Like u said it was a perfect or shld i put it almost perfect relationship till I destory it w my own hand.. I'm glad that you dun hate me but i know u can't accept the things tat i did..

I know nothing i do can change anything.. I juz hope someday we can b back as friends.. Like i said in my pervious post.. All i can ever say to u is sorry 4 making u go through so much... Now there is nothing much i can do.. Its sadden me when I realise tat u r feeling happy but I'm nt e 1 who is giving u when i got e chance..

I really wish u all e best.. If someday u ever feel tat u can b friends w me again, u know hw to find me.. Take care..

2009-04-12T22:13:00.002+08:00

Give up

Do i have to give up? Do i have a choice? I dun think so.. Coz u already hate me so much.. I guess e only think i can wish 4 is 2 go back 2 e days where we juz know each other.. Friends.. nothing much.. I dunno hw much u like him.. But i will not compare nor said anything.. As long as u r happy then i be glad.. I really wish tat ur hate 4 me will not last long.. Hope tat we can talk as friends.. I dunno wat e future lies.. I guess even if we r friends i wun b able to go out w u n ur bf.. Nor r we able to go out alone as friends.. E only way we will b is mayb chat on msn when u online n sms u.. I know for sure i cannot face u 2 been so loving infront of me no matter hw long this matter has pass.. I will wait.. N if someday u decided to settle dw w either him or some1 else.. I really hope i will know..

2009-04-12T20:46:00.003+08:00

Back to work..

Aft wat happen.. Its back to work today.. I tot by keeping myself busy i will b better.. I was wrong.. v wrong( like always) Tears formed when i reach harbour front mrt station n when i board e shuttle bus to e hotel.. Gg back remind me of u.. The hotel.. E place where i know u, c u almost everyday, e way u smile whenever u saw me walk past and tat voice of urs.. For the past few weeks, everytime i walk past the FO counter my head will juz turn.. Looking 4 u.. N whenever i dun get 2 c u, my heart jus sink..

Today u work night shift.. I been wondering e whole day.. Do u still hate me? Can we still b friends? But how? I really miss u n whenever i think abt u n him i feel stupid.. Really stupid.. I dunno if u will totally ignore me when u c me or juz smile at me? But i doubt u will forgive me..

Its sunday today.. Every sun i would receive ur sms on ur schedule 4 next week.. But as of today, tat will nvr happen..Today i saw my schedule.. Mon tue off, wed to fri 8-5, sat 10-7 n sun clear my ph.. i wanted to sms u this.. But then i ask myself.. wat will u said? do u even care? I guess u will juz delete tat sms.. Juz like i wanted to sms u good morning.. hai..

On e way walking back hm, i stopped.. Recalling so many things tat happen.. I juz feel like dying.. Go kill myself or get knock dw by a car.. Silly? Stupid? I dun think so.. waiting 4 some1 is a v torturing thing n i make u waited 4 so long.. Too long in fact.. By e time i realise hw important u r to me, u r gone. Gone 4 good..

Juz saw ur blog.. "10th april is a happy day".. If u truthly love him n is happier w him then all I can do is b happy 4 u.. This day is a day i will remember e rest of my life... 10th march 08.. The day i join this hotel.. E v place i know u.. 10th dec my birthday.. Guess every birthday it will juz remind me of wat happen.. 1 mth ago we were still meeting up, gg out.. 1 mth later things change.. To e extend tat its almost like a free fall 4 me.. Since wat happened ytd.. I been asking myself.. If only i can go back time.. Juz this once.. I will 1 2 go back to tue.. E v last day where i went out w u.. I would knee dw n ask u 2 b my gf..

There are so many sorry 2 said to u.. E only thing i can said now.. But i doubt u care.. Xindai if u ever read this post.. All i 1 2 said is losing u was e biggest regret in my life till now.. I'm sorry for making u wait 4 so many mths.. Sorry 4 making u leave starbucks alone when my classmates were abt to arrive.. Sorry for cancelling e appointment w u n meet up w my friends instead.. Sorry for ignoring u when u r online.. Sorry to make u cry so many times.. Sorry sorry sorry.. Aft all e sacrifice that u have made for me ( more than any1 has) I still disappoint u..

2009-04-12T08:27:00.012+08:00

Hurts

I tot i can pack it up n walk away.. Leaving it as a good memory.. I can't.. I really can't.. N i always tot.. Its this thinking that is e cause of everything.. I have nvr felt this b4.. Nvr.. You are the first.. I have nvr wanted some1 so much.. So much so tat I really take u for granted..

Too much pain? It juz cannot b compare to wat u been through.. All i can ever said is sorry.. I'm truthly very sorry.. I tot i can b selfish this time round n was hoping things would change.. Well things change.. But nt in e way tat i wanted..

While waiting for ur reply e other day, I tot abt us.. Wat are e things i shld do 2 make up 2 u and also our future.. Yes.. For the first time I really think abt us having a future.. Nvr in my past few r/s has i think this way.. I'm always e "we take things 1 step at a time.." My friends know tat I take this kind of things v lightly coz no1 know wat the future will be.. But for the first time when i tot abt the future, I actually lose it in the present.. I remember i took e marriage quiz in fb n I was to marry at 32.. The first thing tat came 2 my mind was you.. E only 1 tat can make me change my way of thinking...

2009-04-10T00:15:00.002+08:00

A decision; A choice

We all make decision everyday.. Be it big or small, important or not.. Watever decision we make, it will affect our life n others in a way or another.. It is also a choice. Something we have the right to choose.. Most of the things in life we always have a choice..

When things dun go according to plan or for watever the reason, we will regret it.. Something we have to live by no matter wat coz wat done cannot be undone.. Sometimes we tell others the reason, sometimes we dun.. When we dun, we juz hope that others will understand and c things in our point of view coz we know its not tat easy to explain and they will understand..

End of the day if there is really something that is beyond our control or e usual phrase "I dun have a choice" we juz hope that things will work out fine in the end.. Better than wat we expected..

2009-04-05T22:16:00.003+08:00

Single

Was chatting w linda juz now n realised tat she went 2 a movie w a friend.. Well, I guess it right.. She meet up w another guy she know from SDU (social development unit) I know i v mean but sometimes when i tot abt this, I feel tat is she tat desperate to have a bf or in serious need of guy friends? Even so, does she have to go to sdu?

Mayb I'm juz old fashion ba.. Or rather i got enough friends b it male or female tats y i dun c e need of gg to sdu.. i guess its hard 4 me to understand ba.. Most ppl wun go 2 sdu coz like me they dun feel a need.. But do we really think this way? Or rather we feel tat gg to sdu is something we cannot accept.. Its like we lead a lonely life, do not have our own circle of friends and cannot make new friends without our daily life..

But is all these really truth? I really dunno.. I guess every1 has their own reasons n theory ba.. Something i do know is for now I dun c e need of gg to sdu.. yes i'm single but so? I guess to me knowing some 1 n falling in love is abt gg to meet up w some stranger and pray there u 2 click n there will b some chemistry between e 2 of u.. Rather I prefer the its fate 2 know e other party and b friends. Fall in love w her without I myself realising it.. In this way it make e whole process more meaningful rather than hope for something in e beginning..

2009-04-05T21:56:00.006+08:00

WORK

Been working in this hotel 4 1yr n abt 1mth soon.. As a full-timer, well its been 2yrs and 4mths... In my whole life, from part-time till full-time.. more than 5yrs.. By now, most ppl know abt my part-time studies and every time they heard tat I am studying for a dip in HRM rather than gg 4 my degree in Hotel Management.. They will ask Y??

My answer? I 1 a 8-5 or 9-6 job, 5 or 5.5days work week job, office n bored to death job, sick and tired of F&B.. so many dam reasons.. I guess the main reason is bcoz of the low pay, long hours and worst of all, I always as myself.. Wat the point of putting in so much effort when no1 even bother or care.. My manager? Well she has her good n bad points but i will juz put her as 1 of e those manager who i dun mind working w.. I guess in this modern world or rather age.. If I were to b so unhappy w my job then i rather choose a job tat pay me more and I b unhappy abt it..

Altot i been on morning shift from 8-5 for the past few weeks, its v different from office job coz I still have to use alot of physical strength and my workplace is so dam hot tat i really sweat from e moment i start work till i reach locker.. I rather bored myself to death in a 8-5 office job at e v least i still have air-con and dun need 2 use so much physical strenght..

Been on e look out 4 jobs 4 e past few mths but e recession is so bad tat e amount of jobless ppl keep gg up n for a single vacancy, there will b a tons of ppl (more than e normal amount) applying 4 it.. For some1 like me who doesn't have HR experience.. Hai.. All i can do is juz pray..

2009-03-29T23:22:00.005+08:00

Juz 1 2 blog

Hmm I was abt to blog on this particular bag but then i realise something.. I din blog abt the messenger tat zhenzhen bought 4 me.. Yes, i got a crumpler bag from her as a gift.. Paid by her but choose n buy by me hahaha.. Well, I actually went to buy this back myself then she return me e $$ later coz we juz dun have e time to meet up at tat time n i was taking my time 2 decide on which bag I wanted.. I got e small size 1 for this model coz I dun look nice in a medium size 1 n feel its too big.. n this size happen to 2 juz e right size for me to fit my "baby" heehee..

Well aft i got this crumpler bag, I happen to saw this coach messenger bag online.. For those of u who know me, I normally dun surf branded goods nor do i walk into e shop unless I got e $$ or really 1 2 get an expensive something from e shop if not i jzu dun like e feeling of can c cannot buy... N so this particular bag still make me wish tat i can have it too.. Now i got crumpler, I also WANT this coach bag.. (caps coz its a want not a need)

Current Bag (moderate embarrassment)

My dream coach bag

2009-03-27T23:14:00.003+08:00

My Studies

Hmm this is 1 of e reason y i din blog for so dam long.. I'm already lazy n plus all those projects.. omg.. I'm juz to lazy to think n write liao.. I rather do something more relax or exciting hahaha.. Well at least my project for this sem is all clear.. Next wed is e only lesson of e week n also e last lesson for this sem.. Then end of april I will start my exam.. 4 papers leh.. Well e good thing is at last I dun need 2 go 4 lesson on my off days.. Fri is a "free" day lol.. For those of you who doesn't know, my school is in LITTLE INDIAN.. YES.. I caps it liao.. Its call SHRI at tekka mall... Ok nothing much to blog on my studies liao..

2009-03-27T00:05:00.003+08:00

My Lappy

Hmm.. abt 3mths since I last updated.. Ok I update on my new "baby" first.. For all those who din know, i got myself a msi wind. A 10" netbook or rather mini laptop. Its white in colour.. well till now I still din regret getting this baby but i guess it just cause a problem 4 my liverpool trip.. Well, I still believe I can still go 4 my liverpool trip.. Anyway back to my "baby" I went to customise the skin e other day n today I went back to sim lim square to have it paste on.. I would said I din regret spending $83 for this.. A pic of how it look like now.. For more pic, go 2 my facebook photos and c..

2009-01-07T13:50:00.002+08:00

MY 4 days of leave

hmm i haven rest more than 2 days straight since march.. N tat was when i quit n change to my current work place.. I still remember e 1 week break came n gone so fast that I don't even have time to rest.. So many things to do..

First day of leave- Rot at home, went for lesson at night..
Second day of leave- Well, Aft so many mths, I finally went shopping alone again.. Went to levis coz they got this $50 off if u bring in your old jeans to trade-in.. Any brand as long as e jean tat you gg to purchase cost $100 or above.. Only bought 1 this time unlike e pervious yr where i will buy at least 2.. Anyway I still miss the shop alone on a weekday when its not so crowded.. But orchard is always crowded as usual w most shop on sales.. My damage was only $250 for ytd.. Hmm for all the clothes i bought.. well i was worth it.. Too bad i was too tired.. Might go dw orchard again to go zara and espirt n c.. The 1 opps thai embassy..
Third day- Today-- Jus came back from my swim.. Been ages since i last do a work out.. Guess i will go there 2 swim a few laps on my every off day.. The only excerise that i can do bcos of my back problem.. tonight lesson again then supper w chef n e rest..
Last day??? Hmm i know e guys will all go dw to elliot funeral wake.. Sue will b there leh.. Hmm but like i care.. Come to think of it.. I still haven really forgive her.. I wun said i hate her but i guess her action really disguise me esp when i knew of her deleting my photos.. Hmm mayb i might go down orchard go c c look look and buy the crumple bag first and get a few more clothes..

Hmm whenever i tot abt wat happen to elliot, I juz dunno hw to feel.. I guess nvr would i expect that i something like tat would happen to some1 i know.. hai.. Guess dun think too much la.. Go cook my pasta then rest..

2009-01-06T00:48:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR.....

ya ya.. I know i'm late.. every1 will b gg, its e a.. oo 6th of january liao.. so wat.. I finally have e time or rather energy to seat infront of my com (without dozing off) to blog.. B glad tat u c a update..

Anyway a new yr 4 me.. I do my usual stuff first.. Hmm its my third christmas n new yr tat i spend working liao.. v sian leh.. I know its something i shld expect since e day i decided to work in this industry but dunno y, i juz feel v sian abt it.. hai.. but on e other hand at least i'm rather happy at work now.. Well, I;m now label as "jie mei" by my 2 of female colleague n they been gg around telling ppl tat.. faint.. E worst part abt been their jie mei is, its alwasy 2 of them vs me.. Something i learnt.. When 2 women r talking, juz keep quiet.. 2 mouths r better than 1.. No matter hw naggy or how much i can talk, a guy will nvr outtalk a woman or rather 2 women..

My new yr resolution for yr 2009.. Get a new job (office hr job), do well in my Dip in HRM, save more $$, go on a trip this yr n to liverpool next yr.. get myself new clothes b4 cny.. a new gf? hmm nah.. i really dun have time 4 1 la.. need to work n study liao.. weekend if got soccer i will 1 2 b home n watch my favourite liverpool play unless i'm working then LL.. hmm hw to have gf... Most of all, try to sleep more if possible.. Realised tat i really lack of sleep.. altot i only work for 9hrs on average per day but i only get max 8hrs of sleep everyday provided i dun wake up for toilet in e mid of e night.. with so many things n i still have to find time 2 meet up w friends tat i can only meet once every 2 weeks of less.. n also those friends tat i haven meet up for a yr liao.. got to start meeting them this yr..

Hmm but my 2008 wasn't tat bad, got 2 watches for my birthday, 1 from owner, e other from linda.. THANKS alot.. Till now i still feel bad for them 2 spend so much.. O and also e handmade birthday card from owner and zhenzhen (waited abt 8yrs 4 1 from u woman)..
Now I'm juz waiting 4 my new crumpler bag.. I will thanks zhenzhen in advance 4 this.. Will let u know which bag i choose by this week.. heehee...

A sad news for yr 2009.. got a call from marcus ytd.. Was told tat the big fire in thailand, 1 of e singaporean tat die in e fire was a friend we knew.. A gaming friend know by nic, me, marcus, martin, qihe n etc.. Altot i wasn't tat close to him but it was a surprise to me.. Hmm it make me realise tat we really take our life 4 gained.. Altot in life there is some many things we want n wish to improve, I feel tat friends n family r v important.. We wun know wat will happen to us tmr, so no matter hw busy we r, we shld always try to make time to meet up w ppl or friends we treasure.. Dun wait 4 ppl to ask or call u out, do it urself, plan ahead.. even an hr or 2 of meeting up also mean alot.. Lets hope during this tough yr, we all will still b happy n have lesser regrets..

2008-12-18T00:39:00.005+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday to ME

lol.. Pass 8 days liao then i post.. Anyway I juz got mine LG KC910.. Hmm quite broke liao.. but it was worth it.. Went to suntec road show on sun aft work to get it.. My q number was 3341 but at e time when i got my q number it was only 3222.. N it was about 8:30pm.. So end up i left suntec at abt 11+ close to midnight.. Well at least i save $100 over e usual price.. Still exploring this phone.. My first touchscreen phone tat has wi-fi heehee...

Been attending my lesson since my birthday till nw, guess tats y i only blog today, n yes i work in e morning n attend my first lesson on my birthday.. but it wasn't tat bad n my it was tat boring.. Lesson till next mon then we resume next yr.. so till now.. can slack abit..

Btw i 1 2 thanks everyone for all there wishes.. Thanks nic, charlie n marcus for e small but nice birthday cake n a simple dinner on tat day itself.. n also thanks owner for the gift..

Off topic now.. receive a call from florence today, she call to ask me if i'm free this sat to meet up w the rest of them 4 dinner but i told her i can't cos i got dinner appointment w my army friends.. to celebrate mine n another guy birthday.... I din think of anything much till when i got home n told jianxin tat i can't make it this sat then he told me its florence wedding.. I was surprise.. So last min n when she call she also nvr even mention anything abt her wedding dinner.. juz said meet up 4 dinner.. I told zhenzhen abt it too n she also find it weird.. Well end up i decided to give it a pass.. I know its v bad but still she as e bride also nvr mention anything abt it when she call me, i feel tat it does give me e v"main qiang" to call me kind of feeling.. No point gg to an event where every1 know was is gg on but u r e only 1 who doesn't know.. I dunno wats more to said but i guess now i know tat there wasn't any friendship in e first place to begain with.. A wedding dinner is suppose to b a big thing 4 a woman but she even to go e extend of calling n said juz 2 meet up 4 a dinner... Guess i'm juz v disappointed ba.. Well in life u lose some u gain some...

Nothing much to blog liao.. All i 1 2 do now is to find time n go watch movie.. Hai...

2008-12-02T16:17:00.005+08:00

Piss off big big time

I'm super duper piss this time round.. If u r reading this let me tell u this.. I have my own rights n dun act like some little kid gg around n asking 4 respect and spam n complain on msn,blog or even fb abt wat i did coz I DID NOTHING WRONG..

By not picking up ur calls, replying ur sms or ur msn msgs, it shows tat 1- I'm ignoring you, 2- I'm Not free to talk.. If u dun even understand and feel offended then go ahead and u can juz ignore me and like wat other ppl said, u dun need some1 or a friend like me in your life.. I'm not like u, sit infront of e dam bloody com 24/7 a day even at work.. U got all e time to chat,blog, go forum do online stuff but tat doesn't mean others do e same.. I can't b like u sit there in e office n keep thinking abt all those fucking crap shit stuff and come up w lots of self answered answers..

If u 1 something and ppl din give u a reply INSTANTLY, learn to give ppl time to get back to u.. To u, wat u 1 is top priority but to others there r lots of things to b done than to b stuck in a their own lala land...

I din ask u 2 buy me any present nor did i said we can b friends overnight nor did i promise you anything.. I din said we got a chance to get back nor did i said i fall 4 this or tat girl so STOP all ur fucking stupid shit crap gg around telling ppl I will have a gf 1 and make it sound like I tell u i fall 4 this n tat girl.. N to make things clear.. We broke off bcoz of all ur crap shit thinking and try telling every1 that u login to check all my personal stuff and even to e extend of deleting my msn contacts.. I did not broke off w u coz of any other girls.. N even if i were to fall 4 another person and b in a new r/s, there is not a need 4 u 2 know nor is it any business of urs.. Btw I did told u b4 tat I dun need anything 4 my birthday and u complain here n there.. WTF is wrong w me saying i dun need anything.. N when u really bought me something, I din complain or say anything coz like i said, u have already bought it.. Dun go around feeling or telling ppl tat he dun appreciate wat i did or watever shit coz I juz said.. I already told u I dun need any present nor did i even request you to buy me anything..
DON'T need to b nice or try to know MY friends, e best thing is dun even bother them at all.. Wat happen between us is between us.. Dun go around talking to every1 who u think will know me well.. This make me HATE you to e core.. Dun assume tat i tell every1 things abt us coz I dun.. U r e 1 who them this n tat n make them question me.. I nvr ask wat they chat w u abt nor do i care but you really dunno ur limit.. N wat nic reply to you i agreed tat it hurts but have u even wonder hw did all these happen?

Dun even need to bother to counter reply or feel wat i said is wrong bla bla bla or post a comment here or on ur blog or anywhere.. I dun care wat YOUR friends think abt me coz they are YOUR friends.. U can said watever u 1 2 them n I dun give a dam shit.. U can stay at home on every weekend n be emo n cry n cry n cry every night 4 all i care coz u really piss me off big time... Wat ppl said u always have a reason, feel e need to explain or reason w them.. Y can't u agree w wat other said n admit u r wrong n tats it.. No more.. Try to said:"I at fault, sorry." Tats it.. GET IT???

Updated 30mins later: Stop msging me in msn or watever la.. If u ever understand wat i juz blog then stfu can? I dun care wat u do or watever la.. I juz blog n said DUN need u 2 have a respone... U 1 2 have respone go do it other place n dun need to msg me.. Sometimes i really wonder.. Dun ppl ever read n understand?? hai..

2008-11-21T14:29:00.002+08:00

NEWS!!!

hmm a breaking news.. Nic got his sentence and it was 3 hrs of cwo.. Sometimes i really pity him leh but aft this incident he also learn not to litter in this "fine" country again.. Well at least he will remember it for life..

Something i wanted to said but i keep forget.. I went to watch Ave Q e other day and it was very nice.. I would put it a show that is worth the $$.. Too bad it has ended already.. But u can still visit it website or go to you-tube to look at clips of the actions..

Lastly a new item to my list of I wanted:

The Nespresso Machine..

2008-11-20T12:19:00.002+08:00

Back Aching

To all those who dunno, I have this back aching or some call it pain, problem since army days.. That was the reason y i got down graded.. I been to normal x-ray n mri scan but both show up nothing.. The hospital put me through therapy sessions but i nvr complete them coz its a waste of time.. The said mayb my bone is weak so need to do my strengthening exercise but in actual fact it juz make it worst...

I did acupuncture last yr or e yr b4 and it improve but not long aft it came back again.. It has been bugging me 4 yrs now.. Happen when i do jogging or lack of sleep or dun sleep totally straight...

Today is e last straw... I give up.. I need to c a doc again.. Will go 4 acupuncture later.. It has been bugging me 4 weeks n getting worst each day.. Will go to work to settle things 4 tonight event-(whole restaurant booked by aviva) too bad i wun b there.. Then i leave aft i settle my things to go c doc.. Ok.. gtg.. ouch ouch ouch...

2008-11-17T00:35:00.006+08:00

Blog is alive??

Hmmm.. 5 mths since my last post? Where e hell was i? well in singapore all along but juz lazy n find it meaningless to blog.. I also dunno y i blog today.. Maybe like i said, i am so super duper sian..
Really meaningless lor.. Work meaningless n life meaningless...

My work is like hanging there.. Got to wait till e lobby bar-pavilion, to b done w its renovation then i get to transfer.. I applied to study a Diploma in HRM.. Y a diploma again and y HRM?? hmm coz i got no $$ and w my "ke lian" pay.. i can't afford a loan to study for a degree in hospitality n there is hardly a good degree in sg.. but e end point is NO MONEY.. Hmm n i apply for this diploma in HRM coz I feel tat HR is a very challenging industry and i study abit of it while i was studing for my diploma.. N e best thing is I can apply for NTUC subsides... Hmm now i'm a sitting duck waiting 4 next week to come so know if my subsides approve or not...

Hmm i end our r/s a few weeks back.. She was very unwilling but i guess i was too "tired".. Ytd i make everything clear to her.. I told linda this e other day:" I wun b able to find a gf or rather its tough 4 me to have a gf coz my i meet up w my ex once a while n most of my friends tat i hang out w r girls.." She agree w wat i said coz she is also 1 of them tat i hang out w.. hahaha.. but I guess i got a v big issues w ppl not trusting me or my friends.. Coz these r ppl i trust to make them my friends no matter wat happen, they had been there for me when i need them n will still b there in e yrs to come..

N i stop playing fb application coz i feel tat its meaningless juz click n click.. brain dun even think.. I wanted to play game.. but i know if i start i wun stop.. Guess I'm looking for something meaningful 4 me ba.. something tat can "push" me in life..

Hmm did i mention christian and weida got marry already? Hmm christian was so skinny tat i was so shock lor but she look really nice in her photo album.. Mayb she was so stress up weeks b4 her wedding dinner tats y she was so skinny.. Saw a few 5N1 ppl too but i wasn't seating w them coz i went w my gf.. hmm so many ppl getting marry liao.. wonder next yr hw many more??

Hmm dec coming soon.. another yr gone.. n I'm already in this industry 4 2yrs.. time pass really fast... 2yrs n my dam pay is not even 1.8k.. hai.. Life sometimes is juz so unfair.. ok till then.. will blog if i got good news from ntuc..

2008-06-27T14:07:00.005+08:00

Update on Life

Ok wat shld i blog?? Heehee dun really know.. Mayb abt my job first? Well i requested 2 b transfered to the hotel lobby bar last sun and my boss as well as e higher management agreed to it. Hmm e actually date will b known to me later coz e bar will need b renovated.. Hmm been working in Garden for more than 3mths already n frankly speaking I dun feel tat there is any improvement on me nor is there anything much tat i had learn.. Guess for me now is to work and save $$.. Other things will jus take it as it come..

As for my r/s, well we been having arguement for e past few weeks but its not a bad things aft all, altot i felt "drain" but its help us to understand each other better and learn to be more patient n understand.. Hmm will be gg to kelong trip on the 4th - 6th july, first trip out w her. Hope things will turn out fine..

O blog this entry mainly is bcoz alot of u ask me wat is cowon A3?? Its actually a portable media player (pmp). It has a harddisk inside, a 4" screen. All you have to do is juz transfer your movie or rather avi file into it then it can play so u can watch it on e movie without doing any conversation. At the same time u can put mp3 inside or other different audio format songs inside. The music it produce is way better than ipod or even creative.. Cost of this? $580 is e price i pay and it comes w leather casing n screen protector. New set current cost abt $588. Ok I'm not rich.. But its something i been looking 4 long time. A movie,mp3 player at e same time got a large screen. Its not slim and i will said might be buky to lots of ppl out there but hey it has tv out so i can juz plug into any tv and watch it on tv.

<-- Pic of hw a A3 look like..

OK nothing much to post liao.. Tc ppl..

2008-05-23T00:35:00.004+08:00

First Date??

Hmm this was something she told me on tue.."Dear this is actually our first date since we got together" Frankly speaking at e very moment I was having question marks all over my head.. I was counting e no. of days we been together n asking myself is she giving me a quiz or starting to said something weird to confuse me again?? heehee..

Hmm aft a good meal at book cafe (my favourite cafe) n waiting anxiously 4 a dam bloody cab..(where is 1 when u need 1) for we r gg 2 b late 4 e movie.. n there she said something like tat.. Well been e smart me, i juz ask back n said we been on a date b4 n i even give u flowers on tat day hahaha.. But actually its quite truth tat on tue, aft 2 weeks of been together this is our first date gg out alone as a couple...

Kind of weird 4 me coz most couple would have already been out 4 a movie n dinner b4 they got together or straight aft they r together but 4 us was way way different.. We miss e "wooing" process and aft tat we meet up on my off day aft been together to surprise nic n gang n actually have 2 wait till tue(e "second" other off day) then we r able to do things other couple have completed..

E other different thing we did was she meet my mum on monday n had dinner.. Yes e 3 of us.. E first time i really c her so nervous n stress up that she actually drop tears.. sorry dear.. but like she said she has 2 face it soon or later so might as well do it now.. N she was pressing my hand e whole time while we were having dinner.. hahaha..

Today zhenzhen told me she n yiqun was saying how "ro mai" we r..hahaha.. Frankly I dun think we really r but we r more sticky coz we hardly c each other..
Days we can meet each other:
1- My off day(once a week). If weekend then whole day, if weekday then must wait till she finish work..
2-Meet her aft we finish work..Lucky i work till 6pm, unlucky 10-11pm then meet provided we r not tired..
Unlike most couple, we can't meet up anyday we want from mon-sun.. N moreover we r juz 2weeks plus into this r/s so been sticky is normal juz tat no1 realise.. Sometimes she even had to stay up till 10 or 11pm juz to wait 4 me 2 finish work to call me.. If u guys r doing wat i'm doing now u guys will b v sticky too hahaha...

Juz receive an "bomb" today.. hahaha.. But expected la.. Still 1 2 congrats christina.. 15th june her big day..

O if any1 1 2 read more detail abt her meet my mum session go her blog n read.. so funny.. :P

2008-05-12T11:28:00.002+08:00

1 week..

Hmm 1 week.. to others they might b thinking "only 1 week.. still got a long way 2 go leh".. but till now when we think back abt how we meet, the time we spend together 1 weeks seems like a long time 4 us.. Like as if we knew each other 4 a long time...

Well, for those who 1 2 know hw we got 2gether, u can click on my dear link on e left to read abt it.. I'm too lazy to retype n feel tat its too long to copy n paste.. Hmm I told nic b4 tat 4 me 2 b in a r/s, my gf got to b able to accept my weird working hours to e extend of only meeting me once a week which is something i feel most girls cannot take it.. but i actually quite surprise tat she actually expected something like tat b4 i even tell her.. Altot i mayb worry abt hw things will turn out bcoz of this, her understanding really make things easier..

Sometimes i do feel tat for nic not asking anything on tat day, it does feel abit weird.. O well, i'm helping his mum 2 work on tue midnight, so mayb till then he will have questions 4 me..

Ok dun 1 2 post 2 many things here liao.. Since most of the things r between e 2 of us.. Mayb will post when there is something interesting.. but think unlikely coz by e time i post, my dear would have already updated on her blog..

2008-05-09T03:15:00.002+08:00

My Relationship

5 days into the r/s.. Juz in case you dunno wat i'm talking abt, well I attach for 5 days already.. My feelings? Simple.. Cloud 9..

Been talking to each other over the phone almost everyday.. Something which i seldom or rather hardly done to any of my ex.. Mayb its bcoz we hardly know each other from the start and we r now in this r/s.. I'm still surprise but extremely happy tat we are today.. We still talk abt hw we get together in the first place and not knowing each other and juz jump into this r/s to others it might be a risk but 4 us, tats where all the fun and challenge are.. Nvr did i even think of us been together but that incident juz happen n its like some1 up there or something juz put us together..

Things i do: Smile when i saw her pics on my phone, miss her almost every moment n days, sms her whole day long and also msn everyday b4 i go 2 work..

Something that I nvr expected and told myself tat i wun do is 2 date a gamer girl.. but to think this gamer girl can make me to crazy abt her.. Hmm life really v unpredictable.. If u were to put her with nic n gang, i can tell you she will click n have more things to talk to them then me.. weird isit?? Guess mayb its e she n me r so alike tat helps us to b together.. Something i know since the day i know she exist..

I dun really care wat others think of her nor do i care abt her past coz to me past is something tat we shldn't b holding on if we really 1 2 move forward.. Its only memories that r worth holding on esp good 1..

We meet up w nic,charlie,kary n marcus(who was late) on wed 4 movie n the shock look tat nic has on his face (the nice food doesn't help him too) was something i nvr expected.. But I'm glad that we give him this shock coz he was saying" u 2 manage to keep in quiet 4 3 days..." Lol well nic it was acutally 2.5days hahaha.. Thanks guys 4 the congrats..

Zhenzhen asked me this question twice" R u happy".. My answer" yes i am" n in actually fact i can said that i haven felt this happy 4 a long long time..

We decide to take things "slowly" and keep asking questions, something like Q&A sections, n also be ourselves, be it angry, sad or happy, we will juz show it so tat we will know e limit of each other n know where n how to "poke"

Who is she?? Well, sue fang is her name. You can look up 4 her pic in facebook and friendster.. xinyun.sg is her blog.. O drop by nic blog n read abt mircale where he talk abt his shock n e 2 of us.. How we actually got together?? Hmm wait till she updated this part on her blog then i will juz quote it.. heehee..

2008-02-15T01:02:00.002+08:00

Happy V-day, CNY & Yr 2008

First of all Happy Cny, Happy v-day n also Happy yr 2008 to every1.. I know i know.. its already 14/2/2008.. n my last post was like 2007.. The whole blog is filled w cobweb....

Let me explain abt my life aft i came back from aust first.. I was transfered to banquet department aft i came back (finally..) n it was like hell... Its was towards the end of e yr where banquet is super super busy lor.. We got wedding at almost 5days a week if not it will be companies dinner & dance.. To make things worst, I was so new & there r so many things 4 me to learn.. I can tell u no1 will ever know how stress up i am when i'm working there.. Even nic who meet up w me most often dun even realised tat.. Been there was e most stressful period in my whole life.. worst feeling then i'm studying or taking a major exam.. N the workload is so heavy, sometimes e stress n workload really cause me to either forget or no appetite to eat.. So tat mean I will not have a single meal 4 the whole day.. The only thing tat i do when i reach home is to "knock out"... Hmm well, at least it help me to lose alot of weight till ppl in e hotel is telling me abt it.. hahahaha.... Till today, its almost 3 mths already n to me it feel like 6mths there.. Sometimes i start work at either 12pm or 4pm n had to work till 7am e next day... The best personal record was 14hrs straight 4 3days n eating 2 meals.. God...

Talking abt cny.. I was having hell a week b4 cny.. Working 14hrs straight 4 2days n i clocked another 14hrs on this tuesday.. hahahaha... I was so tired on cny tat i sleep half a day on the second day.. Was suppose to meet up w kary n marcus 4 movie on tat day but i guess my bed was too comfortable.. So many smses n calls on tat day... Sorry guys.. But like go around telling ppl, wat i'm doing is almost like those construction foreign workers but they dun have crack their brain to think.. Here i not only have to do extreme "workout" but also crack my brain to think n plan alot of things w at least 30 part-timers waiting 4 me to give them instructions... Faint... I even have to work on my birthday leh...

Hmm tats my life at work 4 now.. On my other life.. hahaha.. I broke off w her on the eve of christmas ( jus in case u dunno).. Its not bcoz i 1 2 save $$ 4 christmas ( my working day too...) but it jus happen tat i been considering it 4 a few days n juz decide to tell her n it happened on christmas eve... I was telling nic the other day, u guys might c it as when i patch back w her tat time i wasn't really putting much effort n doesn't really bother abt the r/s but all these r actually wat u guys think n feel.. Deep in me, I know tat i had tried n trust me, for you guys have know me long enough 2 know i always treat my r/s v serious but you guys r not me.. You do not know wat happen daily n how i feel when things or problem happen.. Changing a person is not an easy task n u must b responsible 4 tat but i know i dun 1 her to change bcoz of wat i dun like but rather she change bcoz of e r/s.. Her thoughs, ideas, feeling is something i cannot accept n having a gf who dun understand abt my work is something that i cannot accept.. Things happened at e moment only I know n sometimes by e time i meet up w u guys i would have put tat aside coz i juz feel tat i dun 1 2 talk abt unhappy things to make myself more stress.. To her i might b a heartless guy who always break her heart but she will nvr know tat she was the 1 who really cause all these.. When i first broke off w her, that was the only time n only day tat she said she din 1 me to leave her coz she realised tat she love me.. Guess wat i couldn't accept was it had to be on e day tat i wanted a break off then realised tat.. Everytime i ask her "Do u love me" her answer will always b "Y u need to know?".. There was nvr a time she will said "I love u" nor "I miss u".. Nothing much changes aft we patch back except this time i nvr ask her all these things.. Juz focus on my work n to make things worst, she will nvr sms me even tot i dun sms her 4 2days.. lol.. So many things to said but i guess in a r/s it take 2 hands to clap.. I'm nvr bother by wat others thinks abt my r/s but i guess if u r in a r/s.. Take a step back n look at friends around u.. They will nvr know wat is happening to ur r/s n wat they think or feel might not be wat is actually happening to ur r/s...

Lastly on my life.. Hmm i got a new job offer already.. To those who doesn't know or been too busy w their work n life.. I'm gg to change hotel soon but still same industry.. Plan to work till end of this mth so by 2molo i must have my resignation letter or at least inform my boss abt it.. Hmm my pay is still below e 1.6k mark but nvr or less its still more then wat i'm earning now n since i'm promoting to a captain position, well i would said its not tat bad aft all.. 1yr+ in this line n i got a captain position.. Lets hope i can reach my goal soon..

On other news.. hahahaha.. Hmm was so shock n surprise on that day when zhenzhen told me sally is doing her divorce now.. Well she is a friend of ours who we din meet up 4 2yrs?? hahahaha so long already... but e surprise part was its her husband at fault n not her.. 4 some1 who used to like her alot n finally got e chance to marry her n now he is e 1 who cause all these.. I'm really surprise.. The most coincidence thing was i was thinking abt sally a 2 night ago.. I was thinking.. It been super long since we all last meet up w her n wanted to check up on her 1 day w zhenzhen but now.. I really dunno hw to ask her...

Breaking news.. Congrats to kary for his first successful date with the girl he know on facebook call Linda.. Hmm a $100+ of roses, a $100+ dinner 4 2 at 1 of my favourite place, The Turquoise Room, well.. guess it was all worth it for him to spend so much since its on a v-day n his first day w the girl tat he is interested in.. Other than his first love.. hahahaha... Lets all wish him all the best n who knows, he might b e first in line to get marry.. hahahaha..

Currently I'm still not sure if i shld carry on typing on blogspot or I might stop.. If i really stop tat will mean i have gone back to my old method, writing my diary.. Guess e good part is i dun need internet acces to do it hahahaha.. Ok.. Its been a super long post 4 now.. Till next time, hope every1 have a happy v-day today.. N to the person who receive e flowers today, I do not know wat u r thinking abt now, but if u feel its impossible n also feel tat its hard to said no then u dun have to.. At e same time if a Thank you is also hard to said n if u dun wish to c me at e moment n perfer to avoid, I wun be angry.. Jus treat the flowers as a gift from a friend who know u so long but nvr get u a since present.. Dun worry abt my feeling coz same thing wun repeat again n as ppl grow older we handle things more differently n 4 me now, I know tat i can handle watever things is been throw at me coz life still have 2 go on..

Last but not least, 2 my 2 new "godsis", if u 2 ever have e chance to read my blog, I'm glad tat i know e 2 of u. For the first time in my life, i really feel tat sometimes age doesn't really matter but if u click u really click.. O n pls dun keep saying xiao didi, xiao didi.. I know i'm so much younger than u 2 n look younger than my current age but e least u 2 can do is 2 remove e word xiao... ok?? Thanks alot hahahaha..

2007-10-26T09:50:00.002+08:00

Before I Fly...

Hmm last update b4 i be away from sg for abt 20days.. For those who dunno, I be gg for oversea reservist training at wallaby.. Hmm the last time during army days i din get to go coz on departure day i actually had chix pox.. hahahaha.. Lucky this time round everything is still gg smooth..

Hmm went shopping for a new wallet n cap the other day n i actually spend a total of $250+ in total.. yes.. its 3 digital without any . in the middle.. Hmm for the first time i din really feel any "bu se de" when spending this amount of $$.. mayb i feel that its worth it.. $230 for a wallet.. hahahaha the last time i hit a 3 digital for a wallet was at least 5 yrs back or more.. hahahaha... n tat was only $100+... anyway i also got a liverpool cap coz wallaby there is a desert area so i cut my hair short.. in this way i dun need to gel my hair which fat nic is always nagging...

To all my friends, dun miss me when i'm not around ok? hmmm i dun think any 1 of u care or got time to miss me too.. hahahaha.. OK if u guys r good n miss me i will tried my best to bring back kangaroo's meat for you guys ok?? hahahaha... Hmm to all those who wanted koala bears.. Remember they scratch so the only koala bears you will have is mayb those soft toys version..

Ok think tats all for now.. Got to go pack my back if not i dun think i can reach airport by 12:30pm.. hahahaha last min packing...

My $230 wallet.. hahaha Yeah finally my own liverpool cap

2007-10-23T23:28:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthy To You

Happy Birthday to Charlie, Nic, Celine n lastly Zhenzhen.. Hai.. Second time for 2 yrs i forget abt celine's birthday again.. sorry sorry.. N first time i din call zhenzhen at e stoke of midnight to wish her happy birthday.. Super tired week.. Lucky i remember it in e morning if not i'm sure i will forget abt it too.. Heehee..

2007-10-23T23:00:00.003+08:00

The Turquoise Room

Hmm was intro to this place by zhenzhen coz she said the veal shank v nice.. I din get to try it on e day we went coz it wasn't on the menu but when i brought nic n gang there e 2rd time, i manage to try it. Guess by then i was too hungry but i so can't remember hw nice or bad it was.. hahahaha.. Anyway wat i 1 2 said is this place is at gilman village n its a really nice n quiet place to have dinner especially if u r looking 4 a place to have dinner your love 1.. We went tat on that day to celebrate charlie n nic birthday which fall on 1st n 2rd oct respectively... Hmm altot its a nice n quiet place, its abit out of place if u dun have a car unless u leave near alexander road... Really wish to go there again but this time i 1 2 have a nice slow dinner at e same time have wine my dinner..

2007-10-23T22:33:00.002+08:00

Lunch at RoyalChina (Raffles Hotel)

One of my lunch came truth.. Heehee, I manage to find time to go Royalchina and have dim sum lunch w zhenzhen on 1 afternoon.. Frankly speaking, aft having lunch here, i strongly believe you u don't need to spend thousand dollar to go hongkong n eat dim sum.. I really dislike eating roast meat, coz of their thick layer of fat but aft having it here, i'm starting to fall in love w it (but on if its from royalchina) heehee.. Actually it wasn't tat ex as i expected coz we had abt 6 dishes and e bill was only $40+.. E 2 of us was so full aft tat... I wun mind gg there 4 lunch again provided some1 is free to have lunch w me on weekdays heehee..

2007-10-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

I'm BACK!!!!

Ok finally, I'm back to my blog hahahaha... I realise that i got a draft tat is dated back to 21-4.. Omg.. 6mths already... ok this is a brief of what changes is there in my life. I will have a more detail update after this soon..

For those who still dunno.. I'm back to singlehood again.. Broke off w my gf of 5mths plus... Just in case some of you dunno.. Yes i was attached n in love with this short little girl hahahaha.. But guess loving some1 and been in a r/s w that person is a totally different ball game... I guess we are better off as friends than as couple..

I'm currently still working at swissotel merchant court but will be transfer out from the bar to banquet department in nov.. I rejected st.regis offer to stay here coz of many reasons.. but at least it worth it coz i got promoted 1 lvl(so slow..). Let hope more good things will come my way...

Been to a new places to eat but too lazy to post.. Guess i will try to do it by next week or b4 i go wallaby for my oversea reservist training on the 26th.. n gift held a "gather" at her house e other day to celebrate her baby who is 1mth old.. hmm will have pictures of all these soon..

OK ppl, like i said i will do my blog soon n here it is.. Dun complain tat my blog dun exist.. I know its v v brief so let me crawl this blog back to where it is suppose to be.. OO b4 i forget.. those of you who has a blog but i din put a link to your blog, pls update me w ur blog address through e-mail or msn or post a comment here so tat i can post e link.. Sorry abt tat.. other than work, i'm always so super lazy.. heehee..

Ok tc my friends..

2007-03-23T01:16:00.000+08:00

Busy n Happening Weeks

Hmm quite a few things happened for the past 2 weeks.. been wanting to update but been e lazy me (as usual), i delay n delay n even when i'm on long weekend off i still din start hahaha..

Ok since i'm gg to start something tonight.. I shall talk abt e v busy week.. It start off w me working 12pm to 12am on a sunday, then e next day work from aftnoon till 1am.. On e tueday.. i was suppose to work till 8pm but my trainee (rainbow) was sick so she left at 8pm while i work from 10am to 1am.. Brought her to c a doc e next day at 11am.. b4 i start work at 4pm-1am.. Ok up to here u ppl will said, well wats wrong?? Well, here come e best part.. since i have been working till late n waking up early, i haven have enough sleep n on friday night at 1:30am.. I receive a call from my other trainee (elyn) saying tat rainbow is v sick n need to go back to e hospital.. so off 2 e hospital we went.. I was there till 6am n reach home at abt 7am.. OMG.. n on sat i start work at 2pm sia.. Let me tell u.. if u been through wat i have 4 e whole week, u will feel like dieing man..

Hmm was on long weekend last week n me, nic, marcus n jermey went to attica.. Well, they wanted to dance n drink while nic die die also 1 2 c me dance n keep saying freddy sure dunno hw to dance 1 bla bla bla.. Well i dun really care anyway.. We were there for like mayb 3hrs.. b4 tat useless marcus got drunk..At tat time it was only 1am.. tat was suppose to be e happening time.. hai.. I think e next time he 1 2 clubbing w me again he must think twice.. hahaha.. half jug bourbon coke, 1 glass graveyard (without brandy), some vodka w oj( dun taste of any vodka) n 3 shot of bombay sapphire gin on e rock.. He drink up e gin in 1 shot n aft tat, it was e end of his sober period.. He was so drunk tat when he was outside, he juz sleep on e rock beside e river n e only time he woke up was juz to vomit.. hahaha.. Hai.. too bad we all forgot to take a pic of him.. he was totally waste on tat day n he dun remember wat he did when he woke up e next day..

hmm dun remember wat i wanted to update liao.. Getting more n more forgetful liao.. hmm march 21th 2007, yeah.. now a comfirm staff liao.. hmm so officially i been working 4 3mths liao.. Doesn't have much complain working here n i still like it here.. Now there is a trainee call mery.. she is so short, i can tell u she is only up to my shoulder.. N we all call her bloodymary..

O.. really wonder how e rest of my classmate r doing.. been trying to arrange a gathering but we cancel if off twice already so will c how.. Tats e problem w every1 working in this industry..

2007-03-02T01:10:00.000+08:00

Melt, The world Cafe..

Hmm b4 I talk abt this place.. Got a question to ask.. Hw was ur v-day? Hmm juz remember mine v-day while talking to zhenzhen juz now.. For e first time in my life, i work from 10am to 1am leh.. Was so super tired n e bar was so dam quiet on tat night lor...

Ok now back to e main topic.. If u haven got a single clue abt where this place is, well its in mandarin oriental hotel (perviously known as oriental hotel) I used to work there b4 in 1 of the italian/poolside restaurant but not it has change..

Its e first time i go there as a guest/customer n aft so many yrs.. The hotel really change alot.. from the outside it still look e same but e moment u step in.. omg.. When we reach e main entrance of e hotel, there was so many hotel staff there to greet every incoming guest.

The cafe itself look more like a restaurant to me than a cafe lor.. So high class n e embience is so nice.. Mayb bcoz there is much ppl today tat is y e embience look so nice to me but i still feel tat e way they design e restaurant its so unique lor.. The hostess was v friendly n e manager even took e effort to walk to every table n talk to the guest..

hmm as for the food there, well their chinese food isn't tat good but their dessert n indian food taste nice n so doesn't their grilled steak. Btw did i mention tat its a buffet?? Dun think i did... anyway if u 1 2 go there n try, pls go aft e cny period coz now is 60+++ per person n mulitply tat by 2 person is hw much i paid today.. heehee

Well i dunno y but this is e first time i pay 4 such an expensive place but i wun regret mainly because the design of e whole hotel n restaurant look v chinese n cosy.. something u dun find in other hotel.. O aft dinner we went to e bar lounge n have a look n was invited into e bar but we decline coz we juz had our dinner n it was running late too.. When we came out of e toilet n was waiting 4 e life, we meet e guy who invited us into e bar.. He was v friendly asking us where did we have our dinner, hw was it n do we like e design of e hotel..

Took 2 pics of e restaurant, will post it some other time.. Any1 of u willing to pay 4 a nice place to have a quiet dinner, i would said go to melt.. A place u wun regret gg..

2007-02-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Yr

Ya ya.. Sunday is e last day of chinese new yr.. I know.. is abit too late but who cares.. Not many ppl read my blog anyway lol..

Hmm guess i start off by talking any my cny shopping.. Well.. din get anything this yr.. juz a shirt n 2 pairs of levi's jean.. heehee.. Well $300 in total only la.. Whoever said only woman know hw to shop they better thing twice again... Hmm talking abt shopping.. My pay is out soon leh.. I need to go shopping agian to have more clothes to wear liao...

Hmm singapore cny is so dam freaking boring.. Something 4 u all to wow abt.. In china, those who r currently working, dun have 2 work for a week during cny and as for students, they r have their 2mths holidays n e best part is.. It is snowing in china.. Dam.. y singaporean so ke lian 1... cny only 2 days ph...

For those of u who doesn't know, currently the trainee that is working at xroad bar is call rainbow, her friend elyn has been transfer to e cafe 4 2 mths... Sometimes i feel that they really have too much of a good life liao.. everyday keep complaining tired tired tired.. omg sia.. dun they know in this industry if u get to sleep 7hrs or more per day is already a gift from god.. N best part is working hours only 8-12hrs per day unlike ppl who work more than 12hrs per day..

Anyway i also found some1 who is more irritating than nick liao.. Tat person is rainbow... lucky she is a girl if not i think i would have kill her...

For the past few weeks tat stupid nick has been gg dw xraod bar n he try to speak to rainbow in chinese.. OMFG sia.. I dunno slap him how many times on his dam big head for trying to speak in chinese coz all his sentence dun make sense nor do they link n i always have to repeat watever he said to rainbow.... Always remind me of a duck n a chicken.. 1 speak english;1 speak chinese hahahaha... 1 go quack quack quack while e other go a... (dunno hw to type e sound 4 chix) lol...

O btw b4 I forgot.. we went to have dinner w elyn n rainbow on cny eve then rainbow went to drink w us while elyn went back coz she has to start work at 7am e next day... Lawrence is 1 guy who nvr admit tat is drunk no matter hw much he drink while tat rainbow can do alot of crazy stuff when she drink.. like put potato chips on ur legs n pour beer on ur jeans...

well.. gg to sleep liao.. need to plan where to lao my second n last yu sheng of this yr for this sat..

2007-02-10T13:52:00.001+08:00

Random Updates

Chinese New year is around e corner.. well.. its actually 1 week away.. I haven got any new clothes for my chinese new year yet.. Hai.. so dam lazy to out n shop alone hahaha..

Oo v-day is also cming soon too.. Next wed leh.. We were talking abt it at work ytd n no1 in my outlet including my boss 1 2 off on wed.. Hahaha guess it is giving us e blue.. Juz feel its so weird n funny.. Its like for most ppl out there who wish 2 have a off day on v-day n they dun get it but here we r able to choose our off day yet no1 wish 2 have their off day on v-day..

Hmm 11 more days n i be working in this outlet 4 2mths already.. Well 2 mths seems like a yr to me.. Mayb bcoz time past v slow at the outlet n its rarely busy... Somehow i been feeling v empty for the past few weeks... I can't really pinpoint wat is wrong but i guess mayb its bcoz currently I'm not studying anymore n doesn't have a gf so everyday is only work. Somehow I'm juz not used to my life been relax.. lol.. I miss my working n studying life.. It make time past faster than usual..

My boss told me e other day tat i need to clear 2 days of my ph as i can only keep them up 2 90days.. coz they were last yr ph.. This mean i have to clear them b4 i'm confirm.. Hai.. Sian sia.. dun clear also cannot.. Clear liao also dunno wat to do.. So wasted to clear my ph then do nothing

Sometimes i really wonder.. Does loneliness make a person fall in love easily? Wats e point of sitting dw n start reading a book or watch a show when u already know wat the ending will b like.. Sometimes been in love is so blind tat it might end up hurting u...

2007-01-26T13:50:00.001+08:00

Your Birthdate: December 10

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it.

You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter!

You are very prone to love - hate relationships.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2

You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

2007-01-26T13:12:00.000+08:00

Year 2007

Hmm 26 days into year 2007.. Finally, I'm willing to spend some time to update this blog of mine. Ok a update of my life first..

For those who dunno or haven been there b4, I'm currently working at SMC (Swissotel Merchant Court). I'm working at the bar name Xroad bar.. Pay is not v good n i can said its even lower than wat I was having at HQ but well.. its e experience that I'm looking for so can't complain much. Currently there is only 3 full-timer there,my outlet ass Manager, me and a bartender who works there 4 8yrs liao.. They r nice ppl n easy to get along w.. Its more fun and enjoyable working here than at TCC n I swear by that.. Currently I dun have any pics of how the place look like but will take some soon coz we r gg to have a renovation soon.. Hopefully I b post to banquet to work during tat period rather than EMC(ellenbought market cafe) :P...

Now as for how I celebrate my 2006 christmas eve n new yr eve.. well work work work hahaha.. Spend e whole day at work place at xroad bar but it was so dam super boring coz there wasn't any much customer.. My F&B manager came up w e idea of having a live DJ to play songs but it backfired n end up all customer stay away from the bar.. OMG.. Its even worst than asking me to stay at home... Mine worst chirstmas n new yr countdw i ever have.. hahaha...

Every year every1 will have a new yr resolution.. so here is mine..
1. Lose weight
2. Find time to learn my jap
3. Have a gf that can speak jap
4. Save $$ go on a tour this yr

Thats all for my new yr resolution.. As 4 the third point.. I think must wait long long liao hahaha...
For those who are planning to get marry this year.. A notice to u all.. Pls inform me earlier if I'm invited so tat I can save $$.. I'm now a v poor kid liao hahaha... Last min invitation will not b attended unless u shortgun or suddenly got a bf n 1 2 get marry..

26days into e new yr and wat have i been doing? Well, been working night shift most of the time so I hardly leave e house.. Too lazy n tired so sleep n sleep n sleep.. Past few off days, I tired to do some of my things n juz last week, i meet up w huihui to go watch Death Note 2 n guess wat.. I din understand the ending n i got her to explain to me abt e ending a few days later... Guess sleep too much brain also not working liao.. Anyway there is still quite a number of movies i 1 2 watch but I'm finding it tough to watch it coz my off day is during the weekdays n no1 is free during the weekdays... sian sian sian...

Oo congrats to gift n jianxin for been the parents of their future child.. Hope jianxin will b in sg when gift give birth to their first child..

Lastly to friends tat i haven meet up 4 sometimes.. well.. guess u all have 2 wait abit longer coz this weekend will b a busy weekend for me n hopefully my flu will recover by 2molo... Cannot fall sick now...

2006-12-21T20:49:00.000+08:00

My Birthday/Christmas Wish

Hmm by right this entry shld b posted on my birthday itself but i got no time to blog on tat day.. Reason is bcoz I went to have dinner w christina.. Aft tat we came back to our house here n was chatting half way when we saw henry who also join us n we chat till 2:30am.. By then we got no choice but 2 go home coz i need to wake up at 5:30am 2 go back to camp 4 reservist n she got to work e next day.. E best part is I haven even pack my things yet hahaha...

Anyway here a big big Thanks 2 everyone for all ur well wishes.. To christina who ask me out 4 dinner to celebrate my birthday and also Soo ling 4 e present..

Juz realise ytd tat christmas is next monday but too bad i'm broke 4 this month so can't get any christmas gift 4 u all. Sorry ppl.. U all know who u r.. Hmm nic was telling me last night tat he dunno wat to get 4 my birthday so i decided to put up a christmas wish list. Note: Most things here r things i want n not a need n juz 4 u 2 c tats all. Dun need to follow this list to buy but if u 1 i also dun mind heehee

1. A platinum Ring or platinum ring w white gold from lee hwa ( My most wanted item)
2. A stainless steel italian brand ring tat cost less than $100
3. A swatch or any nice looking watch.. ( Too lazy to go look 4 1)
4. A Braun Buffel wallet.. Must b soft leather 1 ( something i 1 4 some time liao)
5. A new handphone. Nokia n80 or song ericsson w850i
6. A mp3 player (since i can't listen to radio on e way to work.. I need 1 now)
7. A 250gb harddisk
Hmm think tats all for this year heehee

O btw jzu 1 2 said a big big thanks to ppl who give me all those christmas give.. Hmmm too broke n by e time i got $$, christmas is over liao.. Hmm will make up 4 every1 next yr but got to save up alot w this pathetic pay of mine..

O wish every1 a happy happy chirstmas n a happy happy new yr.. Wun b able to meet up w any1 coz b working till wee hours on eve n no off day on e day itself..

2006-12-20T13:41:00.000+08:00

Life after TCC

Hmm first let me update abt my job thingy... I got a job w e emerald hills group, e company of ice cold beer. I was given e position of a server b4.. This was b4 my reservist but aft some consideration, i decide not to accept it coz if i 1 2 b a server i rather go 2 a hotel n work.. Wat i'm looking 4 is 2 b a bartender..Well currently i'm waiting 4 e hr of smc to call me. Will update on tat part..

My first ICT (reservist) tat was held last week.. I really dun understand y every1 said ict v relax 1.. well it wasn't 4 me lor.. Altot it was fun as most of e ppl in e reservist unit r friends i know back from my active days, e things we do since day 1 like car orientation, gg out on detail, listen to talk n etc.. all these is rather tiring but as compare to army days well, it still way better hahaha.. Lets juz hope tat we get to go tawian 4 our training rather than australia, wallaby. Pray Pray pray.. hmm wait.. i would take wallaby anytime compare to gg india... NO no nononono...

So here i am.. rotting at home 4 now waiting 4 call.. Thinking abt e things tat i have done lately. Realise tat actually i v v sick or tired abt some of e things i done n hw friends treat me n also e way i treat them.. Its always when they need help then they will b close to u, call u almost everyday to ask u 4 advise n also 1 me to lend a listen ear.. Hmm if juz listen n dun need me to talk or give advise its fine.. but aft giving them advise, not only do they nt heed e advise, they keep doing e same stupid fucking old thing over n over n over again.. Then aft tat they come back w e same old shit thing again.. Dunno is it bcoz as i grow older i dun feel like repeating things over n over again or e patience is not there or there r more things 2 b worry abt now tat dun wish to b bother by all their stupid meaningless thing..

As time goes by i really get so disappointed w them tat now I have decided to juz leave them alone.. Dun bother abt wat is happening to them n dun ask.. Be e old freddy who dun care abt any1 else.. Sometimes i really dun understand them.. y do they keep doing e stupid old thing again when ppl younger than them can think n do things in a more mature way.. Sometimes i really feel like giving them 2 tight slap to make them wake up their fucking idea... IF only i can......................

2006-12-20T03:54:00.000+08:00

4 weeks at tcc

Haven been updating my blog 4 abt 2mths already.. Hmm Lazy? No time? Com spoilt? Sick? Well.. lazy is e word... ok since its so super long.. I shld back track to to to to... oo i quitted my job..

I finally quitted the job at HQ at e end of oct because I finally got a job at TCC.( the coffee connoisseur) Well, I actually applied for the position of a MT( management trainee) but as my dip doesn't have any attachment and my past experience was all working part-time n also was all before i went to army, they can only give me e position of a jr captain.. Since i really have no choice, i decided to take up e job. I din really plan to work here 4 good as i only 1 2 take it as a stepping stone coz end of e day i will still 1 2 go back to work in a hotel. Hmm I dun really have a reason as y i like working in a hotel.. its not as relax as working in a cafe and promotion wise, it wun b as easy as working in a resturant.. but mayb becoz i grew up working in tat kind of environment tats y i 1 2 go back...

So there i was working at TCC at raffles exchange.. Started e job on e 6/11 and i still remember i worked till 10pm(closing time) on tat day. I was v surprised coz on abt 90% of e ppl there r malay n 80% r females(full n part-time staffs). Having so many malay n females staffs there, i find tat communicate was a problem during my first week there.. My boss isn't tat strict therefore its a rather relax environment to work in.. v v big diff compare to a hotel (trust me). On e first day, i was assign to a trainer who happen to b a jr captain too but she works there 4 more than 1yr 1/2 already. I was suppose to go 4 training a few days later but it was cancelled so i juz workin in e resturant under e guidance of my trainer.

Something happen during e first week.. A group of 4 came in n joined 2 tables (e tables was suppose 2 b 4 table for 2) together. When i came out of e kitchen, i saw them seated in e corner of e resturant so i walked over and suggest to them if they 1 2 change to a bigger table.. The refuse to change n was rather rude so i juz let them have their way n it was also aft lunch hours. But as i walk off, my trainer came over to me n aft knowing wat happened, she blame me for not consulting and even said tat i'm gg against an "order" by our boss of allowing customer to join table.. I was v unhappy at the moment coz i wasn't the 1 who seated them nor was i e 1 who helped them to join e tables.. I explained to her abt wat happened n even 1 of e full-timer who was behind me all these time ( from e min i came out of kitchen) explained to her, she refused to accept it.

Few days later I have a talk w 1 of my mt and i decided to let it go and try to focus on my job. On e second week, i was suppose to have training too but 1 of e full-timer was down w chicken pox so boss cancelled e training so there i was working in e resturant without a trainer. There is a christmas deco competition coming out so my boss hold a meeting w all e mts n full-timers to discuss abt it but they left me out of it.. I was v unhappy abt it 4 e whole week. I know tat i'm new to this company but i personally feel tat even tot i'm new there, the shld at least make me to sit in n listen to wat they discuss abt n c if i can b of any help. Wat got me even more piss was every 1 including part-timers must fork out $10 for e deco and we need to rent costume to wear 4 a week 2 suit e christmas deco theme of e resturant.. I was really wtf man.. u ppl left me out of e discussion then there u all 1 me to pay 4 this n tat.. If i'm a part-timer there then i dun really care but i'm working as a full-timer leh.. I'm part of e resturant n company n i'm employed as a jr captain leh.. Even my waitress know more abt it then me...

Meet up w my classmates on friday n aft talking to them abt my job, they ask me to quit n find a hotel n work coz tcc wun get me far.. I din really give it much tot at first but over e weekend i decided to hand in my resignation letter.. lol u all must b thinking juz 2 weeks n i'm quitting coz i'm unhappy juz bcoz i'm not part of e discussion for e chirstmas deco. well actually not..

During my third, something happened again. 1 of my new full-timer was been "assualted". A customer throwed a metal teaspoon at her which hitted her back. All bcoz she 1 2 ask 4 e bill but there was no1 in e restaurant who she can ask coz every1 was so busy.. I din really know wat happened at tat time coz i was in e toilet but aft tat i saw my full-timer was standing at e counter holding on 2 e spoon. A few mins later, i overheard some1 telling my mt tat she is crying behind e kitchen and by e time i realised wat happened the customer have already left e restaurant. Aft this incident i was glad tat i hand in my resignation letter. Every1 in e restaurant(even my trainer) din know wat happened.. n when my mt knew abt it.. she din even confronted e customer. She waited till e customer walked out of e resturant then she talked abt it.. At tat v moment i really dun understand.. Y din my trainer or my mt confronted e customer? Y did they let e customer walk out of e restaurant? Is this hw they look aft their staff? Both of them been working there 4 more than 1yr n this is hw they handle situation.. I was so speachless.. All they did was file an incident report.. Wtf man.. When my other mt n boss know abt it, they will talking abt it n boss was telling them wat they shld e next time.. At tat v moment i feel like tell my boss" wats e point of talking abt it when its over" but i din.. I was e only 1 in e restaurant who walked away n went 2 e other corner of e restaurant to do my job..

On the v last week something happened too. Normally aft lunch we will all follow a schedule (written on a piece of paper) to go 4 our lunch break. So on this v day, my trainer was e in-charge. It was abt 3pm so at tat time i told 1 of my full-timer to go 4 her break n leave e things at hand 4 me to do. If she go later than 3, then e next person will b delay too coz he/she can't go 4 her break till e pervious person is back from break. 45mins later, my trainer ask e same full-timer 2 go 4 her break again but tat was e time she juz came back from her break.. When my trainer knew abt it, she questioned her n realised tat i was e 1 who allowed her 2 go 4 her break she was so piss off then tick me off it. She said she has allow another full-timer 2 go at 3 already n since she was e in-charge of e day, i shld ask her in every decision she make..

Forgot to state tat there are 2 mt (management trainee) , 2 jr captain(me n my trainer) n my manager (also my boss) in e restaurant. All 54of us(exclude my boss) will "run" a shift on our own or rather 1 of us will always b e manager in-charge for e day. As i was new so i haven been able to do tat. Working there for 4weeks, I really feel that e management system is lousy.

Firstly, hw can they put 2 jr cap in and outlet?? In this way who would listen to wat the new 1 will have to said? Ppl will only listen to e most senior 1 and when come to giving order, no matter wat e most senior 1 will have e most "power".
Secondly,there is 2 mt in this outlet too. Can some1 tell me an outlet w 2 mt n without a assistant manager; hw can a manager have time to actually teach them? Do they know e meaning of e word trainee???
Thirdly, hw can they allow 4 of us to b e in-charge of e day??? Example 1: My trainer is e in-charge of e day, watever she said every1 got to listen then hw abt my mt(s)?? Watever they said we have to listen too? then wat? Example 2: If 1 of my mt is e in-charge for e day, then wat abt my other mt? dun tell me watever e other 1 said we dun need to listen? Example 3: If my trainer is e in-charge, does tat mean tat i can' have any said in e operation in e restaurant??

Hmm i'm glad tat i quitted there coz to work w some1 like my trainer i really feel tat she really cmi. Frankly speaking, her product knowledge is v good but 4 some1 who work close to 2yrs in tcc, her product knowledge is something tat is expected of. She alway 1 2 use her power n so afraid of ppl climbing up her n doing better than her.. Take e lunch incident for example, i heard from e other full-timer tat she was allowed to go 4 her break earlier bcoz she told my trainer that she was hungry.. WTF man.. who is nt hungry? but do we have a choice? every1 got to wait till their break time then can go.. hw can my trainer juz change e timing bcoz of this stupid reason.. she also din bother to change e timing on e paper or remove it.. n there she is putting all e blame on me.. Joining of tables by customers she also blame me 4 it when she was in e restaurant n she din even know wat was happening.. I look at e way she handle things, i personally feel been a jr capt there is a waste of my time n moreover she is my trainer...
Nvr have i been so unhappy at work b4 and in 4weeks on my job n there is so many stupid shit gg on.. No wonder on1 last long at this company hahaha..

2006-10-19T10:45:00.000+08:00

OLD MAN!!!!!

Hmm an old man piss me off this morning.. I really dun get it.. y r old ppl so inconsiderate 1? So wat if they r old? Dun they even have a dam fucking bit of courtesy... N do they understand by e meaning of keep our buses n trains or rather public transport clean...

Well this was wat happen.. I was taking a nap on e bus n of all places, i choose to sit beside this fucking old man.. When i was sleeping, his hand somehow hit me n it was not once lor... The least thing a normal person can do is said sorry n try not to move abt so much but he din even bother to look at me.. N e sbs bus is those new type where they seats r like those on SMRT 1 so i really dun understand how he can acutally hit me so many times...

N e worst part was he was using a tissuse to clean his dam nose then he juz throw e tissuse on e floor lor.. I was like... wtf sia..

Too piss off to type abt other things liao.. do it some other time...

2006-10-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

Lazy Day

Hmmm been almost 3 weeks since my last entry.. Well Happy birthday to Nic n Peifen. 1 on mon while e other 1 on tue..

When to IMF to help nic to remove those painting and while removing we saw e osim massage chair tat cost 3k.. Well since its there n free to use, well we took 5mins off from work n enjoy it.. Its soooo good.. Hmm wonder any1 will b interested to buy tat 4 me 4 my birthday hahahaha..

Hmm juz went to tcc for interview on mon and today i got a call from them asking me to go 4 my second interview.. Hope i can get e job.. Wish me luck..

Also dunno wat to write.. Mind is so blank aft nuaing at home e whole day.. Hmm home cook food, yeah.. Been a long time since i'm home e whole day and stay home n eat home cook food.. Think i shld stay out less to have dinner at home more often..

O b4 i forgot.. juz realise tat this mth like alot of ppl birthday.. there was nic n peifen, then yanshan n zhenzhen 1 is cming soon... Lucky I only need to get 4 zhenzhen n nic if not my pocket will have a dam big hole tat require mths to cover it back hahaha..

2006-09-19T10:54:00.000+08:00

Unlucky Sunday?

Hmm the day liverpool lose to chelsea bcoz of a dam good good goal.. WTF sia... Really got nothing to said...

Well, I n nic spend e night at HQ playing game till 7 in the morning then we took a cab home but guess wat.. he lose his wallet.. n he only realised that when he went to buy breakfast.... Blur n unlucky for him...

Went to meet up w linda who happen to came back from her bali business trip. Hmm is it me or juz her tat i feel something is not right... She got more complains aft the trips rather than telling me how fun it was bla bla bla... Hmm or it is woman nowadays r expecting too much tats y things always dun turn out fun? good? lol I dunno..

2006-09-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

Happy Days

Hmm sound of the wave.. its been ages since i heard it. Was at east coast park w linda last sunday, riding bicycle n seating down to enjoy the sound of the sea wave. Haven felt so relax 4 a long time; really bring back memories... Guess i shld go there more often if possible...

Saturday, 9-9-06, the day my brother got commission. The first in the family to b an officer. Congrats to him. Times really files, now he is already 22.. Hmm at least i dun have to worry abt him anymore. Still remember a few yrs back i was still worry 4 him like hw is he gg to cope if he go into e army, now I still must greet his as SIR leh.. hahaha..

2006-08-31T01:26:00.000+08:00

End of Course

Hmm i shld have said this on monday but i'm juz plan lazy n tired la.. Anyway YEAH YEAH YEAH.. Finally i completed mine dip liao hahaha.. 1yr 3mths... omg.. I can't believe I actually survive it.. Hmm but this time on the v last day, by right it shld call 4 a celebration but since we din have any lesson, every1 juz take their own sweet time n hand in their assignment then we all went hm.. hmm seems kind of weird when we always go drink n celebrate aft our exam but this time round hai.. hahahaha

Hmm now juz have to wait 4 my result (which no1 know when will it b). Sometimes i really regretted studying there, as the system there is so mess up that it dun really look like a school.. But i get to know a bunch of fun n"loving" people (which is my classmates). Guess this is wat we always said, u lose some, u gain some lol.. Hope tat we r able to meet up again to go drinking coz i really miss the fun time we have.. It reminds me of my secondary school times

Hmm as 4 wat plans do i have.. well.. a... Not at e very moment la.. I'm still waiting 4 my results then after that I will have to make plans..

OOo lastly happy 25th birthday to cynthia whose birthday was on tuesday n a pic of e winnie e poohs that she give me, thanks... OO n siew fun better dun b too jealous when she see e 3 winnie e poohs. She may have pics of winnie e pooh but i got 3 cute soft toy of them hahaha

N b4 i log off.. I 1 2 go watch "click"... omg its thursday liao dun think they have it... Finally i got time 2 go watch a movie liao but can't find ppl to go hahahaha..

2006-08-07T10:41:00.000+08:00

Decision

Dun tell me not to treat u good coz i can't. Dun said u dun deserve it coz i wun believe. Let me do e things i 1 for u n to u. Juz let me b e silly me even tot i listen to u talking abt him, i will still b happy.

I admit sometimes it tough to ignore my feeling but i b smiling when i know hw happy u r even tot e things/person to make u happy is not me. Actually I was smiling n felt really happy 4 u last night when u told me abt him n ur feelings. I know tat was e moment where u face ur own feeling n let it out altot it wasn't me who u feel happy abt but i'm still glad tat i can b there 4 u when u need some1 to talk to.

My worries will always b there when i know things dun work out 4 u or when u r having a bad day. I dunno hw to make u feel better but all i can do is juz sit here (few km away from u) n b worry 4 u e whole day till i know u r better.

When u r out w us, I always e 1 w e least words or talk e least coz i'm listening to u. I like it when u r doing something n all i do is juz look at u in silent.

I dunno hw long will i b able to do all these but 4 now juz let me b e silly me. I know u might not like it n feels tat it's a waste of time but to me it's all worth it. I have fall deeply 4 u to e extend of more than my liking 4 u.. Alittle more n i will said u r the 3th woman in my life that i love the most...

2006-08-04T11:16:00.000+08:00

Feelings

Feeling worry, jealous, anxious? For so long, I tot that i wun b affect by these feeling but i guess i was really wrong, so wrong that i was also surprise that when "they" start to crawl back into me aft so long, i realise that I'm juz like e average man out there.

"I haven been so worry 4 some1 for a v long time already n i almost forgot hw it feels like", this is wat i told her the other day. Becoz of her, I felt alot of things that I haven felt 4 a super ultra long time n also bcoz of her, i realise that I have been expressing my feeling n letting them know to her more than any1 else.

Nic n i was talking abt it last night n he said" well, it does feel good when u worry 4 some1 coz it make ur heart works", which is quite truth.

Falling 4 u might not b a wise choice to others or even to u; There r things which u may feel tat r more important then my feelings for u but all of these doesn't really matter to me. How things between us will change i dun really know but i promise u tat i b there 4 u n do my best to bring e smile back if u were ever to lose it.

2006-07-17T05:07:00.000+08:00

Rushing For My Project

Hmm 5am in the morning n my project pp slide is not up yet.. Hai.. wats new anyway. Hope I can get my teacher to postpone the hand in time. Too many things missing from my project. Wat to do, a group work mah n every1 is busy with work.

Anyway some updates on wat I've been doing lately.. Hmm waited from 5am to 7am for linda at her work place the other day. Wat was I doing so late at her work place?? Well, was suppose to meet up w her for SUPPER.. but it turn up to b mine? or rather our breakfast. Bf not at tiffany, but rather at HK cafe at kovan there. Food is so so only or rather v average lor but the guy who serve us is v friendly n polite. Omg i can tell u lor, its been a long time since I last remember abt good service in singapore. Hmm actually I dun mind gg back there again not bcoz of the good but with service like this, gg there to chill out is not a bad idea.

OO n there was martin birthday which i still feel bad for not getting him anything. Hmm wait till i got a pt job la then get him a v v belated 1 lor hahaha. Anyway that KL got a cake for him la but end up pearl choose the cake which make us wonder, whose birthday isit? hers or martin 1? hahaha.

N on friday, I went to cheese cake cafe w linda, the 1 which zhenzhen told me e cheesecake is nice. Well we only get to try 2 diff kind, rum & rasin n also tiramisu. Tiramisu is those non-alcoholic cheesecake which I feel is rather nice. The r&r which zhenzhen like, well, i find e rum abit too much. Oo n i order a pot of camomile tea which is recommend by e guy there. Waste my $$ on tat tea, it's nothing special. Hmm baker's inn 1 taste nicer leh.

N last but not least, congrats david for promoting to Ass. F&B director at Singapore Island Country Club. Hmm 1 more mth n he is out of SMC. Tats all for now, will update when i got a new job n I'm still considering on gg to international cruise to work aft talking to david the other night. Take Care folks. N to cynthia pls take care of urself, but let work take over ur life. Or at least have enough rest then u wun look so tired.

2006-07-04T01:21:00.000+08:00

Jobless Month

First entry for the month of july.. I hereby announce that I had been jobless for 1 mth already. Well, altot its not a really proud thing or watever but guess i really enjoy this 1 mth. Can said for so long, i nvr feel so relax in my mind and sleeping without a "heavy" heart is something i wished for so dam dam long..

Hmm for this 1 mth, i been busy mapling from 10am to 6pm bcoz I paid for the 2x exp thingy which cost me $30 so everyday this timming i will wake up n play heehee.. Oo.. And everyday in maple can scold tat stupid amikko lol.. well actually she is yanshan.. Aft that mon - wed, it will lesson time aft that. By right, i shld be free for the rest of the week but since qihe is in e hospital, I meet up w the rest of them go to visit him 2-3 times a week aft 6pm. Most of the sunday it will be mapling cum rotting day 4 me.. (so so good) Anyway world cup just started la, so to all my friends who I din meet up, well sorry coz as u all know, i can't miss this 4yrs once thingy. Thats abt hw i spend my 1 mth.. hahaha boring right??

Hmm some update on that stupid, idiot qihe... Well, his result for e brain tumour is not out yet but today I heard from peifen, he did a v v v v extremely stupid thing.. He went to bet w his friends for the quaterfinal matches n lose heavily... OMG... need to go dw to hospital n give him a good scolding sia.. WTF is he thinking abt...

Something new to ppl who read this n know nic? nick? watever la. Stupid fatass la.. jus call him tat. Well, hw shld i put it?? Hmmm........... ok, his ex called him a few days ago.. like last week? Well, by right she is in new york now and suppose to get marry to her bf over there coz her bf also went over w her. BUT but but she is having doubt abt getting marry, as in she still can't forget nic n she told him tat she love both of them. No less no more.. both e same.. N since things r getting more n more headache? troublesome?? I suggested that he shld juz "fly" to new york n talk to her abt it. Easier said than done? Nic is u happen to read this let me tell u again, If i were u, i will fly there no matter wat. Be it that she will come back w u aft tat or she decided to stay there n get marry, at least by talking to her face to face, u guys can sort things out more clearly. Like i told u, I believe in the hard way coz it always works. I know the feeling of trashing out face to face so dun think tat i dunno wat u r gg thru..

Hmm... is tat all for today?? A.. guess so.. Oo.. time for me to go look for a job liao but i super lazy leh.. But no choice, think mayb i look 4 a pt job first bcoz of my studies... Any1 out there willing to "yang" me till end of august??? Pls pls pls... :P

2006-06-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

Life So full of Surprises

Be it good or bad, life is so unpredictable.. Take qihe for instant.. hai... hw shld i put it.. Martin told me last sunday that Qihe got brain tumour.. At first i din really believe coz he so big size and its like so sudden.. Then he told me qihe fainted at the lan shop on friday night while working.. At first I tot mayb he overwork or wat coz he alway has v v v little sleep but his mum told me that its brain tumour and he went for operation just today morning.. The worst part is that there is 2 lump in his head and the docs got to operate on him then check in what stage is the tumour... Hai.. remind me of wat happen to my dad... So to all out there, dun jus think abt earning $$, $$ and lot of $$.. Life isn't about $$.. I always believe that no matter if u r rich or poor as long as u enjoy the things u do and dun regret it then u will be happy.

A happy news for every1 to share was that jianxin is officially a husband. hahaha.. It was a v nice and happy night for every1 coz get to meet up with alot of secondary school mates who we din get to c a long long time. Hmm I wun be putting pics over here coz there is too many pics to pic. Go to e link on ur left under my photos where I will put all the wedding pics there. Oo btw some of the pics are blury and it was taken by me.. heehee

2006-06-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

Starbuck?????

Was suppose to meet zhenzhen to do shopping w me 1, but tat woman was late.. Well can i said.. can't complain too much.. I finished reading the newpaper and drinking the banana caramel ppuccino that i got so bored so i decide to do a v bo liao thing.. Take pics of my finish drink heehee

2006-06-09T23:32:00.001+08:00

Worst drinking days...

Drinking session w my classmates aft lesson.. Omg.. At first it was agreed upoon that we go ktv 1 but end up they decided to go 4 drinking session.. The pub we always go happen to b on a 50% discount on most drinks.. So end up we order 6 jugs of beers for 7 persons.. Hmm seems v little right?? Well, I and siew fun had our dinner there too and aft the 6 jugs, david suggested to go over to e other pubs coz there r pretty babe.. n all thanks to marc.. we went.. To make things worse?? I dunno, david open a bottle of chivas.. n i was "forced" to drink 3 cups dw.. Omg.. I was feeling so full b4 tat already and w that 3 cups dw and 1 or 2 more.. I went straight to e toilet.. Vomited 2x on tat night.. N wat came out?? Well.. my dinner of coz.. I was high but not drunk but but but.. my dinner...... I got proof ok.. not of my vomit la.. proof of us drinking a bottle of chivas. O btw.. chivas was shared among 6 of us only...

The "pearl" that we remove from the tip of the chivas

2006-06-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

Forgetful Me

Wow i juz realise that the whole of may I din even have a single entry leh.. Well, guess I shldn't be surprise coz I totally forgot that I have a blog.. Yes, i forgot that I have created this blog.. Dun ask me hw come?? I dunnno; I really dunno...

Hmm wat happen in the mth of may 4 me?? Too many leh.. First n most important thing, I failed 1 of my module.. hai.. So sad... now also dunno when to retake e paper.. Also dunno if I can complete this dip in august...

Hmm 25th may, my unofficial last day of work.. Time past really v v fast sia.. I been working in that lan shop for 1yr 5mth liao... Been there is happy n unhappy times but tats part of work la..
Since I quit my job till now.. I'm still jobless.. (Pls dun keep asking me to look 4 a new job, give me a break)

Ok now for some matters that require me 2 spend $$ $$ $$.. When to the IT show with nic and i bought a new 19" LCD monitor which cost me a... $600.. heehee is now infront of me beside my new computer which cost me a.. $1.3k.. heehee.. Wow in total my whole system cost me close to $2k sia.. so broke so broke.. The cute cute hamster is a speaker cum soft toy which nic bought. (cute right??)

N congrats to jianxin, who is getting marry this June 12th.. Wedding dinner will be held Marriott Hotel leh.. I use my camera phone to take a pic of e wedding invitation card so abit blur blur

2006-04-30T19:34:00.000+08:00

Surprise Call

Hmm got a call from jianxin on friday, telling me he's getting marry this june. I wun said it a real surprise to me coz i hear this news few mths back but juz din know tat it's gg to b so soon. This june leh.. My last day of work is in may and then june got this wedding dinner.. hai.. need to save more 4 these 2 mths liao

I dunno y am I blogging this while I'm working.. Mayb too bored liao. Hai.. Ask linda out 2 watch movie she like v unwilling to spend like tat or rather unwilling to go to e movies... End up no place to go, aft work go home n rot... but its a PH 2molo leh and i rarely have off day on PH... Hai.. wat to do... thats e problem been a single... When 1 2 go out, every1 u find 1 2 stay home, when 1 2 stay home, ppl keep asking u out. Sometimes I juz hate been single but wat to do..

N yes I really hate working on sunday, coz every sunday I'm working alone. So when I'm hungry, I can go v far to buy food and most of e sunday, I be eating mc and mc and mc... I also hate to eat alone so sometimes whole day dun eat, wait till I reach home then I have my dinner. Well, this is me..

2006-04-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

Stupid Me..

Was suppose to go mindcafe to play board games w martin,pearl,nick,jt & marcus but too bad its was full. So we decided to go watch Ice Age 2 at Marine Square. Well include me there is 6 person but jt said he can't go w us to watch midnight show so he went home. When martin try to cancel 1 of the ticket GV refuse. So he cancel his booking and we q-up to get the tickets again..

Any1 who can count will know tat there was 6 at first, 1 go home so we were left with 5 but I went to buy 6 tickets.. Stupid ME. I only realised when I paid for the tickets. The worst part was we couldn't find any1 to fill up the empty seat so tat ticket went to waste..

Blur blur me hahaha.. But Ice Age 2 is a really funny show. Its been a long time since I laugh so hard when watching a movie

2006-03-25T02:46:00.000+08:00

Super Long Post

I haven been bloging for more than a month liao. So decide to 1 short blog it all out since I'm still awake now. Btw, dun expect good english or watever in here, coz my english is not tat good and I'm lazy to write good english. As long as can read and understand can liao.

Worst days in 2006

Hmm can describe it in this way la. Was so dam sick 4 the first few days that I feel like puking all the time. Even when i recover, i'm always v v v tired and dun have much of a appetite. Still remeber when I wait almost 45mins for zhenzhen at habour front juz to pass her the laptop, I can tell u, its a horrible feeling man.. esp when u r sick and there is no seats for u to sit.. Looking at e pale look of mine, she commented:" I have not c u sick till such an extend for a v v v long time liao". So can imagine hw sick I was... Although every year I will have a period of time which I will have high fever, flu and sore throat, this time was the worst. It came earlier than I expected (mostly yr end) and I still have to study and work at the same time..

Most daring thing I did("Sushi Girl")

I know this might be a common thing to most ppl (esp guys) out there. But in all my 24 yrs, this is the first time I did something like tat. Well, I would said asking a girl for her number is not a big deal or rather not a tough thing to most guys but it was my first time. Still remember I, nick and marcus went to the sushi don restaurant where she is working aft my work on sun(was sick on tat day). I wanted to ask her for her number but really v v scare and I took me an hour b4 I even have the courage to ask her for her number. My heart was beating so fast.. Its juz like telling a girl that you like her.. To make things worst for me, when I ask for her number, she din even hesitate. Wow I was so dam paiseh sia and that stupid nick and marcus was there making fun of me sia.. hmm y did I do something like tat? Frankly speaking, I dun really have an answer. All I can said is its juz a feeling lor. When the first time, sushi don was open, I have noticed her. I always tell nick and marcus she look v familiar to me. Mayb I saw her at other don resturant. The first time e 3 of us when there to eat, she was the 1 serving us, at tat time we juz wanted a place to fill our stomach tat all. During that time, she was v polite to us and keep smiling( she got v nice smile). There was this time that I said "thank u" to her but she couldn't heard it so she keep turning to me w the tot of me wanting to order something. It was at this moment that I have a v clear look of her. Can also said its bcoz of this incident tat make me attacted to her. Always feel that she got a v v v nice smile and also look cute. Something nick and I agree on, she got this "x" factor.

"Sushi Girl" is the nick I give her b4 I got to know her name. Sushi Don staff dun wear name tag..

Altot it been quite sometimes liao, I still dunno her tat well. Only xchange hp n msn. Rarely talk over msn n I have nvr call her b4. Sometimes sms she also din reply liao so I was wondering mayb she tot I'm like all those guys who ask her for her number. Or its bcoz she got a bf liao tats y dun really bother? Hmm watever the reason is, i juz hope tat she treats me as a friend and I'm able to know her better. Soo ling and Nick keep asking me to ask her out but I really dunno hw to ask leh. Frankly speaking la, I find it v weird coz we hardly talk over the msn liao then suddenly ask her out, she might think tat I'm v desperate.. Well juz take it slowly 4 now la..

Addicted to Da Chang Jin

Yaya I'm addicted to it liao. Been rushing for my project these few days tat I came straight home aft work and do. But my mum is watching the show and my com is in the living room so my head automatically turn towards the tv. It only turn back to the monitor when its advertisement time on the tv. Y am I blogging at this time and how I got addicted r all link. Its also becoz of 1 and only 1 person, LIM ZHENZHEN(hahaha). Was suppose to meet her 4 movie 1 but she said she got to do project so dunno if she got meet me or not. So end up I got no plans. And since I'm off on sat, I decide to sleep late and watch the recorded show. I watch 4 eps in 1 shot and now I'm addicted. Hmm since I so good to her durning v-day, mayb i shld ask her to buy me the whole set of vcd/dvd of Da Chang Jin. This way I can watch it durning work time and can even lend it to every1 else.

Single

March 25th. I already single for more than a yr liao. Told nick the other day and he said, u better dun stay single for too long like me, if not u will regret it and 3-4 yrs later u dun even know how to handle or adapted to having a gf. Hahaha I feel the way he said it was v funny. To me, if have then have lor if not then no choice. Wat mean to be urs will be urs, if it isn't mean to be then no matter hw hard u try, it will slip away from u 1 day. For the past 9yrs, I been attached for 8yrs. Can said I din really know hw to handle my single life again but all of a sudden its been a yr liao. When we grow up to a certain age or time, we always want or rather wish to have a gf or bf. Be it love them or juz a companion, even 1 has their lonely time. Its juz hw we c thing and make the best out of it. For ppl like me, well, I always tell ppl I got no life. Reason: Work 6 days a week, mon-wed night class, thur n friday 2-9, sun 10-9. The only off day is sat. Either I'm at home sleeping and waiting for my favourite Liverpool FC to kick off or once in a while I be out w any1 who know me. 1 day sure isn't enough. But I try to make e full use of it and even rotting at home is an enjoyment to me leh hahaha.

Hmm haven type so much for a long time except for my project.. guess it time 4 me to go to bed liao.Yawnz... Time to sleep liao

2006-02-22T12:45:00.000+08:00

Tim Sum at Geylang again...

Ya went there last night again.. This time with soo ling 1 of my classmate. OMG.. 2x in a row.. That woman is crazy sia. First said tired then later aft dinner said 1 2 watch movie, then when we can't find any good show, she suggest go nydc..(the place i dun really like) wat to do.. they close at 11:30pm mah.. Then later she suggest go geylang eat tim sum coz e i went there on sunday and she 1 2 eat n e best part was she said she not tired liao.. I was like... she can do anything juz 4 food. That's not all, she even go ta bao the beancurb home. Its like go there 4 food spree. This aunty really sure can eat sia.

Hmm n i tot my day end there, then i realise that there was a liverpool match last night.. Shldn't have wake up n watch sia.Watch a losing match and end up i can't get back to sleep. keep tossing in my been 4 dunno hw long then i fall asleep. Been having this problem everytime i wake up in e middle of the night to watch a soccer match..

2006-02-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

Tim Sum at Geylang

Went there on sunday night aft my work but too bad i din take any pics of them. Hai.. a treat from xy b4 he go back to aust. Hmmm the tim sum still taste so good, I still remember the first time i went there with zhenzhen, we had problem finding the place then heehee.. Aft a late late dinner, we went to walk around n look at "china chicks" hmm they dun look tat pretty, only saw 1 that is not bad looking heehee.. 2 lonely guys walking down the streets heehee... well at least we din do anything but juz use our eyes to c tats all.. We r 2 v decent guys 1.

yeah this week no lesson so shiock.. but its time 4 me to start my project liao.. hai.. i'm so lazy.. Been kind of feeling lonely these few days.. lol mayb i'm still not use to been single hahahaha... Hmm talking abt been single, I realise ytd tat i been telling almost every1 abt the sushi girl which I'm interested in but till now, i dun even know her name leh.. wat a failure... Hmm dunno y but she leave a deep impression especially her looks.. But i guess i better dun think too far coz also dunno can b friends or not and anyway i juz find her cute and 1 2 b friends w her only.. till now still dun have e kind of feelings...

yawnz... gg to bath n sleep liao.. will update on e progress of e sushi girl heehee... O i almost forgo, its exam week for zhenzhen. Dun think she will have any problems with the papers la its juz wat kind of grade she 1 2 have only lol good luck woman.. hmm.. nvrm... nite nite

2006-02-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

Valentine Day

Hmm my first post n its mins aft v day.. Well better than nothing.. been too super super lazy to start blogging here. Got zhenzhen 99 stalk of roses on monday. Dun ask me y i do tat, juz feel like giving her lor. Anyway i also realise that i din give her a single stalk of flower 4 e past few yrs. Mayb I'm making up 4 it; altot its alittle late but well its better than nothing hahaha... Nvr in my life till now did i give any1 so much flowers & 99 roses sure is omg heavy heavy lor. But too bad, i wanted to wait till midnight then ask her to cm dw to collect those flowers but knowing this pig so well, I'm afraid by then she b sleeping like a pig n no matter hw many calls I make will b useless liao. Heehee..

Kena put aeroplane by my lecture today. He on mc.. so end up we do some assignment then came home v early. I was so sian.. tot like at least lesson till 10pm still not tat bad but no lesson n no date . Hmm tat reminded me, wonder hw is nick candle light dinner with his cousin..

Think thats all 4 now.. My bad habit is back again... Always forgot wat I 1 2 type heehee..